Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Today’s definitely a “sail a ship made of dead men’s nails into Asgard and end the world so a fairer one can take its place” mood. A little too much sympathy for the redhead is definitely why I’m not Asatru.

I'm remembering that the reason I could do something as hostile as job hunting while that self-hating is that blaming myself for being not good enough in part blunted how hostile it felt.

Okay, the desire to beat the fuck out of some Nazi stoolie is my sign that I should get the hell off Twitter right now.

man, The Head on the Door is such a good album

man, Kiss Me Kiss Me Kiss Me is such a good album

huh, I haven't actually listened to 4:13 Dream, or Wild Mood Swings. Easy enough to fix.

So apparently I didn't do well enough on their fucking customer service evaluation to proceed. I'm unsure what wasn't good enough for these piece of shit rapacious bastards. Between the evaluation and the initial phone screen that's somewhere 90-120 minutes of my life wasted.

Robert Smith is making me wanna run around in cemeteries and the woods, kiss people (not picky about gender here), and play Changeling the Dreaming until 0200. But noooo, I can't go do any of that because I need to be a good little job hunter.

In a crummy mood, so here’s some photos from Big Finn Hill park a couple of weekends ago.

You probably won't believe it, but I'm stressed about the future and feeling sad about the past again. Who'd a thought.

Zelda the Wind Breaker which follows up the Ocarina of Time with our hero... uh... playing more music with devastating effects

HEY JOHNNY COPE ARE YE WAUKIN' YET
OR ARE YOUR DRUMS A BEATIN' YET
IF YE WERE WAUKIN' I WOULD WAIT
TAE GANG TAE THE COALS IN THE MORNING

Dude! It's the music from like when Keanu meets that one dude, and they fight! And then these other dudes show up! You know, the "big dude punch-out"!
#MisterANDERson #Dude #Duuuuuude

Not Pagan as in "I honor the Aesir, Vanir, and Disir in what I best think reflects my ancestors' practices" but Pagan as in "I believe there's a spiritual side to the universe and that She actually is okay with us and doesn't need us to jump through an unending series of hoops."

Not Jewish as in "I go to synagogue and celebrate holidays without fail," but Jewish as in "some of my ancestors centuries ago came from the middle east and, since then, we've been degraded and murdered all over Europe and the USA for it, so *I* get to define myself and refuse to be classified as 'white' for someone's convenience - especially not while other folks want to degrade and murder us for it."

I am still unsure whether I would embrace the label "disabled."

Tired: the Imperium maintains strict gender divisions, except for the Adeptus Mechanics which has genders like “bzzzt/low ominous hum.”

Wired: female Space Marines Are awesome, let’s do this.

Inspired: Drag Sisters of Battle. It’s over the top aesthetic, it works.

It's just truly ridiculous; gender-affirming care isn't something to debate, and even if I thought it were, there are how many dozen more pressing issues related to say Covid, climate change, lack of health care, inflation, etc etc. Maybe what makes for the real bigots is the ability to hyperfocus on hating the fuck out of whatever minority group rather than *their* real problems which are basically the same as *my* real problems, idk.

As with any prejudice we're handed by the Republican party, people are being hurt and pushed further into emotional crisis for what's basically a huge distraction, but one which folks literally *cannot ignore*. (Analogy; if I point a gun at you, it doesn't matter that I'm trying to distract you from a careening semi out of control headed downhill your direction; you're going to, and have to, worry about the gun.)

This might be thinking several steps too far in advance, but I feel like all this is building a huge amount of resentment towards being handed scapegoats instead of actual resolutions, and idealism of socialism/communism/whatever's-not-this-egregious-bullshitism. Which is great, I'm all for the idea of swapping out the current egregious bullshit for something that provides UBI or guaranteed housing or universal health care etc etc, but then maybe 20-30 years down the line we'll get the alternative socialism/communism/whatever, except if it's hyped too much it'll create its own particularly terrible problems (Holodomir or forced socialization of Samoyed/Evenk herds much?).

watching the "Thor" fanvid for "Threw It On the Ground" reminded me of when I was actually stoked for new Marvel superhero movies. Thanks to the subjectivity of memory it feels profoundly in the past (so not "that was ages ago" like when I was looking forward to new Jurassic World movies, but the same vague ages ago as John Carter of Mars or Kung Fu Panda II).

Causing innocent blood to flow
entire culture lost in the overthrow
they came to seize and take whatever they please
and all they gave back was death and disease
my people were left with no choice but to decide
to conform to a system
responsible for genocide
responsible for genocide
responsible for genocide

#drawings tightened up today while listening to the unused Graeme Revell score for The Thirteenth Warrior and the final Goldsmith score. Brutal oni in rain cape and partial armor decapitates fallen elf foe, an armored adventurer finds gnolls lurking in the darkness, and two undead!

Oh yeah, I draw sometimes right? Two #drawings for #GoblinWeek; goblin wizard, fighter and ranger with dire weasel companion, an orc and a bugbear (decided against tightening the hobgoblin on that page).