Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

*puts on Weird Al's Truck Driving Song*
* predictably wants a roadtrip*

the SAVAGE SANDWICH of CONAN

from a SAVAGE AGE of FABULOUS MYSTERY

comes

KONK

the BONKARIAN

ah yes that notorious bastion of far left politics, the CIA

job hunt stuff done for today, despite really rough news. I wish I could bottle how sleepy I get around 1-3 PM into a pill I could take late at night.

It's weird how after growing up in a profoundly homophobic (trans people weren't even acknowledged to exist), anti-Black, anti-semitic environment, my lived experience means I do have some particularly bad prejudices, none of which I particularly aspire to, and none of which are actually about Queers, Blacks or Jews.

What might help work with feelings of low worth, disposability, obsolescence?

I know, sinking time into artwork related to my weird hobby interests, and especially into analog inks like nobody does anymore aside from established professionals.

Reactivated Twitter account, because I feel I was being pretty short-sighted and hot-tempered. But eh, I probably do need to be using the place differently, if at all.

So something pressed the "you won't be missed" buttons over on Twitter and I deactivated my account.

This was probably too much heat of the moment and not enough thinking in long term.

I think I am going to wait until at least tomorrow morning to decide if I'll reactivate the account or not. I've *got* 30 days.

I had to do some paperwork for an agency, so I broke out the scanner, and getting it to print then having my old Photoshop crash after really cleaning up an elaborate image, was so frustrating that I decided okay, that's it for scanning tonight. I'm getting better at realizing the tunnel vision I get when angry or stressed doesn't reflect a permanent unchanging state.

We all want to be more real than all the others
Wanted all of us to be more real than all of the rest
But it wasn't
Always starts with Galaga in a bar
And ends in a broken heart
Last cock you sucked, to the last cunt you fucked
I'm forever your girl
Please, please, please, say that you love me.

For whatever reason it hadn’t occurred to the folks who came up with the Supreme Court, that someone dedicated to law, whose job was determining it in return for prestige and high income, would instead go “fuck lining my pockets legally, WOO HOO MONEY!”

When you think about it Ravenloft is weird. An AD&D game with a bland vampire inspired creating a cool vampire focused adventure and people wanted more… so now a Hammer/Universal Film horror setting is integral to a game about colorful epic heroes potentially saving the world. It’s a little like saying since REH wrote Lovecraft inspired fiction, Red Nails or Tower of the Elephant translate best to Call of Cthulhu adventures..

TOILET. Stocky but durable the toiletfolk of Varisia are known for providing comfort and their fearsome war cry, FWOOOSH!

1200 in-person completed. I think I did okay though the job might be difficult. I now think it’s more workable than I thought after the phone screen. Aside from wanting to check on a temp lead I think I’m very done for today.

Hey, here is a meme I found in my photos while drawing from reference!

I was doing okay until I remembered that I’m ugly, stupid, and have no real future to look forward to. If I can shelve those thoughts for a bit…

guess who's up thanks to an anxiety spike about pretty much everything

* the heyday of elves and dwarves. Maybe our heroes travel far from their homelands to look for trading partners, or foil their slaver kin, which is about to rip elf society apart. Whatever the case, they find themselves among humans, this new growing power whose bronze technology and hero-led warbands seem so unlike home. I'm imagining something like Sinuhe, traveling among Mycenaeans.

* the coming of adventurers. For centuries, wizards and armored knights were how society fought back big, physically powerful adversaries like giants and dragons. But with the expansion of towns and the middle class came the rise of professional adventurers. Your party is one of those first attempts to prove to local lords that this, not the old system, is the way of the future - and you probably face very angry nobles as well as the monsters.

Lumping together "this sentient consistently has no problem harming others for their own gain," "this sentient will defend and believes wholeheartedly in cultural ideals, but which create incredible harm" and "this unworldly creature is literally a personification of wilful harm" is an ethical equivalent to AC, potentially a profoundly useful game widget.

But when a lot of people in the game have been labeled evil, come from a family history of being the official evil people, or the evildoers conveniently line up with old prejudiced stereotypes, then there's a lot less utility to it.