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And of course the thing I need to do before my 6th and final practice call is I have to demonstrate understanding of this script in a questionnaire. Every button I have about being engineered to fail has been jumped on already this morning and it is likely to get worse so my apologies if I’m a completely unsympathetic wreck later today.

I love cats so much!… I mean not that you didn’t know that but it’s a lot nicer than some of the stuff in my head this morning.

Mega Drive - Neuroframe | FULL ALBUM | 2021 | https://youtu.be/0XcB8ePUXVM via @YouTube

#puyallup #frag #nuyen #sperethiel #chummer

nuyen Redmond Barrens monorail Stuffer Shack soy-cafe, chummer.

not wasting the opportunity to listen to the Bladerunner soundtrack again before the rain is replaced by *actual* futuristic dystopia weather #chummer

I can’t talk freely about it, but don’t think my silence means I’m NOT still angry about it.

I will not play “Guillotine” to;
* hum La Marseillaise off key
* hum Berlioz’s “March to the Scaffold” off key
* loudly declare LIBERTE FRATERNITE EGALITE!
* loudly declare LE FONTAINE DES SANG! if that card shows up

Shoutout to the weeping dude and the blanket-wrapped homeless dude outside the bookstore. Whoever you are, thank you for reminding me I’m not the only one feeling bad in what seemed like a sea of happy prosperous folks. I hope all of us have things better soon.

Gee, let’s try to make up for our country’s historical failings by unsubtly forcing the “everything’s great land of opportunity” party line that worked so great in the past. ‘Course like anything else rightwingers shit up, maybe you don’t care cause by the time fallout gets nasty you HAVE your money?

#drawing so far today, dwarf war priest with frost hammer and dwarf with repeating light crossbow vs owlbear.

driving yesterday, I misread "Sushi Bento" or possibly "Sushi and Bento" and now "Bushi Bento" is going to be a chain of cheap, not particularly Japanese restaurants in any cyberpunk game I run. What's more Seattle than teriyaki chicken?

let’s stare dazedly at the produce as though, were I but to buy the right veggies, suddenly summer would be a blissful haze of shared salads and talk until the sunlight fades

I like how as hobby interests, the model magazines are right next to the weed magazines. “WHOA dude. This is how I did a fuckton of chronic and modified a Gloster Gladiator specific to Britain’s campaign in Iraq. Duuuuude.”

as I come to the close of Chodron's "Comfortable with Uncertainty" one takeaway is;

life is full of loss, pain, sickness, threat. But life isn't ABOUT loss, pain, sickness, threat (or anything else for that matter). And if I spend all my time trying to fight off, mollify or avoid that loss, pain, sickness, and threat - that's not really the same as joy. That's granting these things way more importance than simply things that happen sometimes.

Want to run a D&D game based in opposing People of the Black Blood and the cult of Malar, but everyone I’d game with would want their characters to become lycanthropes and I’m unsure how to handle that.

Ever feel like you should be an atheist, not because you don’t believe in the divine but more because you’re so heavily indoctrinated that Someone Big Unchallegeable and Powerful is going to punish you, that you now can’t be religious without trying to turn it into some form of maltheism?

Okay at North Kitsap Heritage Park. There’s like no parking. There’s supposedly 60 miles of trail stashed in here.

This is definitely one of those face down in a pile of stuffed animals moods. Definitely not a want to be an adult taking care of myself headspace.

I mean the whole thing with the day job is something theoretically emotionally useful; now that I am less self-hating, can I hit a technical skill which is too difficult for me to learn (note other qualifiers too), WITHOUT getting completely lost in self hate as a coping mechanism?

And the answer might be yes, and possibly the childhood answer I have been engineered to fail (this WAS true as a kid, it might not be true here) but fuck this is uncomfortable.

... okay, to be fair Rogue One wasn't really about Space Wizard Samurai, but there WAS Space Wuxia.

Also, do vans in the Star Wars universe have murals of Jedi?