Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

"yes but what's in your pants?"
"pants."
"yes but what are in those pants?"
"another pair of pants."
*starting to sound increasingly worry about the apparent pantception*
"and below that pair?"
"yet even more pants."

put in for jobs, but not as many as yesterday, did not help that I reset my Adecco password and their site promptly went down for maintenance, which took the wind out of my sails. Gotta pry myself out of chair and head home for breakfast.

so using that logic if you were to combine jeans and ranch dressing you'd get DENCH, actually a British actress.

woke up on lockdown one more time
my visions won't ever learn
but I see the light so much clearer
every time I return
forge my armour in the old fire
my spirit sings loud and clear,
even in here;
I'll be reborn, someday, someday,
if I wait long enough.
I don't HAVE to be afraid. I don't WANT to be afraid.
And you can't tell me what my spirit tells me isn't true, can you?

I live cement
I HATE THIS STREET
give dirt to me
I bite lament
this human form
where I was born
I now repent

we walk on two legs not on four
to walk on four legs breaks the law
what happens when we break the law?
what happens when the rules aren't fair?
we all know where we go from there!

animals came from miles around!
tired of livin' so close to the ground,
they needed a change, that's what they said,
"life is better walking on two legs!"
But they were in for a big surprise, 'cause they didn't know the law. AND THEN!
#WhoMakesTheRules #SomeoneElse

reminded again that I grew up in the shitty Georgia which was LITERALLY COTERMINOUS with the ridiculously awesome Georgia. Somehow I managed to completely miss out on nearly everything that kicked ass about home at the time.

Admittedly my parents basically kept me under house arrest because their convenience was more important than me actually figuring out who I was or how to do adulthood, but what might I have wandered into?

and the train conductor says
take a break, driver 8
driver 8, take a break,
we can reach our destination,
but we're still a ways away, but we're still a ways away

(And just life means things are going to go south at some point.) it’s just trained response; for comparison, if right now you handed me a mask, foil and jacket, my movements would be what my maitre d’armes trained me to do years ago too, and remember he trained me for a lot less time and in safer conditions than I was trained to be self-critical/self-loathing.

Today’s little twinges of self hate. There’s a really short distance between “I honestly wish these things were different about my body and mind” plus “I wish I were what these people want so I could be safe” and “what I am is completely unsympathetic, unlikable, worthless and awful.” And unfortunately if someone has actively told you “what you are is completely unsympathetic, unlikable, worthless and awful” it’s damn hard to think otherwise when anything goes south…

I think part of the silence is that nobody has any idea how to stop a state government out of control… let alone as disenfranchised nobodies outside the state, during an economic downturn (and when isn’t it an economic downturn?). And the sad truth is trans folks are a small enough minority that it really is possible for this to be remote to a lot of cis people, which is WHY the fash feel safe pulling this stuff…

Trying to avoid a school bus picking up a big clump of kids took me down a side street and by chance through a big cluster of really heavily armed police, so that’s a little nerve wracking.

Apparently 2021 saw the release of a 2.5 hour long documentary about Ennio Morricone, and someone posted the Spanish translation to YouTube, but it still has English subtitles, so I've been watching that. It's really cool! I'd recommend it to my Dad, but he probably would poo-poo the idea if I did and for all I know he doesn't like Morricone's music.

#drawing today, trying to hash out smaller figures with solidity and character. I started out drawing ultra small and cramped and I can see situations where I’d want to be comfortable doing this. Naked humans but work safe.

Urge to go by supermarket and impulse buy SOME form of potatoes.

I've been feeling tearful all day and I'm not entirely sure why that is, since I *did* eat stuff, and I'm not unusually low on sleep.

W̲h̲ite Z̲o̲mbie - Astro-Creep: 2000 (Full Album) https://youtu.be/3_s_FKy2FFs via @YouTube

what if we made an entire album of songs to drive real badly to?

non esus;
non es que factiototum
non esus que ad unum
et excommunicatus
ex unione de Deum
IT IS NOT HERESY, AND I WILL NOT RECANT!
*headbangs*

Alan Silvestri - Troops In The Streets https://youtu.be/0bo3bzX1VAM via @YouTube

"COMMANDER?"
"Rico."
"MISSION?"
"We're goin' to war!"
"WARRRRRR."