seriously I forgot this existed till earlier tonight
Puttin' on the Ritz https://youtu.be/TMstTM01m28 via @YouTube
OOOOPER DOOOOOOOOPER
@chimerror reminded me the Shoob Shoob song exists, and I am now off on this Motown groove, and if I wind up missing Ann Arbor like anything I'm gonna blame you for it.
Mh -, journaling, ADHD
That reminded me of another thought from earlier this week about ADHD versus goal oriented feelings of achievement; part of why nothing ever felt like I achieved goals in any way that mattered was I felt achievements were meant to get me to safety and NOTHING I did in childhood ever made me safer (such that I miss when that does happen in adulthood).
Mh -, journaling, ADHD
Some stuff just pressed buttons enough that I was furiously angry, then had a little suicidal thoughts, and my chest still hurts. Remembering I’ve been in bad situations plenty of times before only makes me think, why can’t it be enough ever that I can be done with bad situations. I think this is a specious thought pattern that has been getting to me all my life.
Okay story time about hyenas, D&D and antisemitism
Years ago I was inspired to make a werehyena fursona by a Dragon article about African monsters, which gave werehyenas as "makishi." There's actually no such folklore; there are makishi who are masked dancers in Zambia, afaik unrelated to kishi, hyena monsters in Angola, next door. Turns out I'd happened on the only real anti-semitic stereotype in Africa - not only were Beta Yisroel distrusted outsiders but the guys tended to hire out for work as smiths, deepening their association with witchcraft and hyenas!
compare and contrast
#drawings today- a Neanderthal hunter, his spirit hawk companion, and a crossbow wielding Uldra face a yeti high in the mountains, and more small D&D characters - the second monk and second fighter.
#drawings today- a Neanderthal hunter, his spirit hawk companion, and a crossbow wielding Uldra face a yeti high in the mountains, and more small D&D characters - the second monk and second fighter.
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