Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Okay so small child meltdowns while annoying are sympathetic, a child doesn’t conceptualize a longer term; for all they know this is the last cake pop ever, the only time they may ever get to see Grandpa, they’ll be overheated forever etc. If you have PTSD maybe why your upset can be childlike is that you like a literal child have no long term concept.

It is kinda wild how most things I don't like are somewhat abstracted, and Twitter disintegrating has that but also immediate upsets.

A little like how I KNOW McDonald's isn't healthy, mistreats and underpays workers, etc, but I still eat it now and then, versus if they also put insecticide in the burgers?

Okay, confirmed temp job for Tuesday! this is ever so slightly intimidating as hell, but to be fair right now I'm having a day when anything other than "drink coffee, draw not necessarily well, read magazines" feels incredibly intimidating

@obscurestar have you seen that apparently Noodling Discourse has hit Mastodon

#hooey

I'm also thinking about briefly posting about how I got to be such a broken person in the first place, as context for folks.

fuck it, open question should I do any or all of these things?

what if I talked about some weird kinks openly on Mastodon?

what if I went to Shari's or Ihop and got a huge breakfast?

what if I went to Fuji and got some of their awesome ube filled malasadas?

what if I actually shaved my body hair the way I keep saying I will when things calm down?

well the good news is that, faced with the opportunity to turn thoughts about kink and drawing into reasons for despair, I consciously go "eh that's old habit brought on by stress" and part of me wants to talk about real weird kink instead (the drawing thing is that I really feel like I should do more grayscale stuff possibly digitally for ease)

me: man these little apple pastry things from Safeway sure are good at 11:00. Also I'm dead tired. G'night.

my stomach: hey. Hey wakeup. Hey. HEY!

me: oh yeah it's 1:30 isn't it, so tired. G'night.

my stomach: you know where you are? you're in the jungle, you're gonna DAAAAH!

me: crap it's 2:00 fine I'm awake.

the downside of really getting into Goodnight Texas is that they're REALLY making me want cigs

New from Aurora! It’s Captain Marko Ramius’ Caterpillar Drivester™️!

… definitely a joke which will be funny to at least 3 people who remember both Aurora kits and The Hunt for Red October.

oh yeah this packaged udon augmented with leftover fried tofu, green onion, frozen spinach, sesame oil and some shoyu is pretty awesome but you know what it needs?

* grabs nanami togarashi and shakes vigorously, Mountain View style *

It’s a little like; would you trust a reference on WWII if those praising it were white dudes with Totenkopf tattoos screaming about not being replaced, only in this case the reference also tells you about Bismarck’s role in the Battle of the Coral Sea?

o yeah I could go down by the lake where all the rich people live and I could EAT all their PEAS

#drawings today, trying to get more size contrast between figures, low angle stuff, trying for dramatic dark areas. Wasp demon of some sort about to eat a hapless wizard if rescue doesn’t arrive; a trio of adventurers prepare to loot an evil (maybe) temple; pirate versus brass construct.

aww they turned off comments on my favorite sea shanty, I was gonna leave ARRRRRR

*video of a profoundly angry cat being coaxed out of a carrier by vets wearing heavily armored gloves, which has got to happen moderately often *

Me: oh noooes teh gauntlets noooes. Hate it. Haaaaaaate.

… this is why I wouldn’t physically survive as a vet tech

and the dueling leaf blowers outside have STOPPED so now I should grab a nap quickly before they come back

TMBG: She's not your satellite, she doesn't miss you, so turn off your smoke machine and watch your step.

Guster: You're my satellite, you're riding with me tonight, passenger side, lighting the sky, always the first star that I find.

tfw your interviewer says "I'm the supervisor" and you're desperately trying NOT to follow this up with "Can I get a taxi number?"