Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

really bothers me how quickly "I want to do [x]" becomes "I want to be loved for doing [x]" becomes my old baggage about "it's never me, no matter how much I tried [x] there'd be some reason or excuse someone else is the wonderful person and I'll be pushed off to the side, so I may as well stick to my own little weird whatever and not try" which doesn't in fact make me want to do [x] or be loved for it any less.

I have more baggage about drawing porn than most furries, I can tell you that much.

I'm into all kinds of kinky shit IN THEORY because in actuality I'm afraid of getting it wrong, too undersocialized, and too poor to try. I'd adore having a dominant, but the more I think about it, the more I need a therapist instead.

an extra bonus to hanging around east side for longer after work is that when rush hour's dying down KNKX goes back to playing music (which reminds me that the world's not shit) instead of news (which reminds me that the world's shit).

So tonight's COYOTE KITCHEN FRENZY; I deep-fried zucchini to marinate later, put together a Chinese cabbage salad, and since the eggplant I'd fried up for sabih was pretty bland on its own, I chopped it into small pieces and added an Ottolenghi inspired spicy garlic-cumin-lemon sauce for dinner.

Today was a solid two hour long documentary about Stalingrad on the “documentary about Stalingrad” scale of parental interactions.

#drawings today - finally some furry art too! So there’s some really clean nudity.

thinking about going to Safeway. Getting half a pie. Coming back, slathering it with coconut whipped cream and eating it.

https://youtu.be/51oPKLSuyQY?si=yYKFzXxvgvNbBMHk is;

1) the effect of smoking several Jon Pertwee episodes

2) what's playing on the radio while angular insects have a big dance atop a mushroom in a Rodney Matthews painting

3) perfect music for painting your new Fantasy Tribes gnolls from Citadel. Oooo, thinner fumes!

Here are #drawings from the last few days.

Oh no! The “sweet and spicy broad beans” I got at the Asian supermarket figuring they’d probably be awful in a fun way, are in fact the opposite of awful, and I need to make myself somehow not wolf down the whole bag.

bleah, apparently the follow up to being awake for a little while is my brain tossing out how shitty an artist I am and should just quit RIGHT NOW and permanently, on top of what a shitty person I am. This seems extreme enough that I wonder what I triggered.

FIRE
doo doo doo
I"LL TAKE YOU TO BURN
doo doo doo doot
FIRE
doo doo doo
I"LL TAKE YOU TO LEARN
doo doo doo doot

* jogs in place *

Behold, the “sabih.” Basically a fried eggplant sandwich on steroids. Traditionally has tahini, summer salad with tomato and cucumber, hard boiled egg, and “zhoug,” a North African pepper sauce. If that’s too bland you can add mango pickle (I didn’t).

CW for food photo.

Have you ever looked at Aeldari helmets in 40K and realized that the space elves must by definition have neck muscles denser and stronger than even the Astartes in order to comfortably wear those amazing hats? Could it be that Slasnesh was birthed by the collective consciousness of haberdashers?

related;

Sontag bulbes
Montag bulbes
Dienstag Mitvoch, bulbes
An Donnerstag Vreitag bulbes
Shabbos, a novene
A kugele a feine!
An Sontag, veiter bulbes!

Omg I just found some interview with Gary Oldman about doing Air Force One and finding Harrison Ford drinking coffee, eating a burrito and smoking a cigar under a big no smoking/eating/drinking on set sign!

I’ve done almost the exact same thing!

GABBA GABBA WE ACCEPT YOU, ONE OF US! ONE OF US!

A film studies course which examines the works of Kurosawa, Fellini, Bergman, and Eisenstein, and at the end of the semester students decide for themselves which film was actually Rashomon.

oh YEAH Master of Puppets and you know what time THAT means

15 11 16 12 14 08

dude... DUDE! could it be? *checks the AD&D PHB* Yep, could be a ranger!

*air guitar solo*

listening to this slow paced love song because the next song on the album is the AWESOMEST!!1! song on the album and the contrast makes it AWESOMESTER.

* forgets the lyrics and simply yells "Shift to Crinos! SHIFT TO CRINOS!" instead *

similarly "The God That Failed," "My Friend of Misery" and "The Struggle Within" are honestly pretty okay, but hell even "Wherever I May Roam" would be disappointing after that.

Also here’s where I hiked Saturday. The photo with the sign was a few feet from the furthest I got on the trail.