mh journaling
now realizing;
* if I'm this mad, it's something that reminds me of childhood
* part of why I've had such terrible problems with self hate is directing anger inwards so I can't get into trouble for expressing it
* being angry/stuffing anger makes me more susceptible to the next irritation until I can be a lot less frequently dinged
so I was directing this much fucking incandescent rage inwards, for literally years on end. How do I still have a functioning GI tract?
hey someone pointed out https://www.equalitymd.com/ and I feel like it might be useful
"Swasticar" made its way to #Wikipedia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swasticar
with around 90 minutes, I unpacked groceries, put beef into two different marinades, made sigumchi namul, breaded baked pork chops, and a lot of pad si ew with tofu for lunch
and weirdly during the entire thing was thinking of an old distinctly *not* east Asian folk song
Instead of eating weed or masturbating frantically to physically impossible scenarios, like a SANE person, I worked on #drawings.
Lots of random gunk, but some drawings and cooking talk too. Obsesses about DnD and related topics. Left-leaning/profoundly frustrated politics. Black lives matter; trans rights are human rights.
Occasionally NSFW art and discussion, please do follow if you're 18+.