Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Oh yeah, my favorite Modest Mouse track, “There Is No God and Life’s Just an Uncomfortable Haul but Please Buy My Album.”

This world is in some ways really designed to make you feel like you have no value and you’ve achieved nothing if you’re at all sensitive to that and of course, since they train you early it winds up being pretty cumulative

all the things I have left to lose will someday be gone too
back into annihilation
all things must change, maybe it's better off that way
I wish you'd never change
how lucky I ever was to see
the way that you smiled at me
your little moon face looking up at me
one day soon there'll be nothing left of you and me

https://youtu.be/Xifcx9iQcwc

hey man, what're you tryin' to do to my new RECORD, I just BOUGHT it

* Ian McDiarmaid voice

Oh, yes, I’m Cuban Pete. I’m the king of the rumba beat. And now I sense you wish to continue the search for young Skywalker.

being a bad night on sleep

I think I need to start planning on more little treats for myself and maybe more time off so that I feel like I'm working *towards* something.

trying to remember the definition of the future is that it's unknowable, there are any number of things that can happen and, if I survive, it's entirely possible that bright days AND utter misery are ahead. That said, my C/PTSD broken brain isn't great at seeing there's a long term of any sort, just immediate reasons for jumpiness and of course, a past with the worst bits lost in grinding memory.

Someday, the worst of this will be lost to memory.

#drawings earlier today, posting now in case things go nuts tomorrow.

Suddenly realizing ethnic anger (you're either invisible or a villain) doesn't just stack with personal experience in school (it's great to bully you, but the moment you try anything, you're this horrific monster) but it plays out exactly in how angry I am about media treatments of protesters.

let's see if listening to Heilung while stoned gets me anywhere

* Spongebob voice SECONDS LATER

* naked, except for frantically scrawling KENAZ JERO BIRKANA MANAZ RAIDO on one forearm and THURISAZ FEHU SOWELU ISA NAUTHIZ URUZ down the other in Sharpie

why am I thinking for this adventuring party

I'm an orc! My magical ability is GET LAIRGE TAE HIT THINGS WI A HALBERD! I ha far cleverer people tae think for me, clerics and all!

WORSE THE FAKE SCOTTISH ACCENT IS CATCHING!

listening to Garmarna's version of "Varulven"

* will NOT pester the GM for An Oracular Severed Willem Defoe Head Like In The Northman

* will NOT pester the GM to let my character set up a scorn-pole

* will NOT pester the GM to let me quote Havamal 38 in character

#drawings from Saturday.

I was really hoping to have more life, and more *of* my life, about stuff *I* was interested in rather than existing for the convenience of very well off important people.

how do you overcome the feeling that you chose the wrong major in college, and have been punished for doing so for the rest of your natural life? Asking for a friend.

so in The Muppet Alien, is Ellen Ripley the only character portrayed by an actor, or is the alien?

Hey, someone I know started a Telegram group for furries with fibromyalgia, and even though I don't need it, maybe someone out there does?

https://t.me/fibrofurs

#drawings from last night which I tweaked a little bit, and from tonight.

cranking Garmarna's version of "Vanner och Frander," pounding my cup in time against the table and bellowing "KLADKAKKA! GE MIG MER KLADKAKKA!" as coffee sloshes everywhere

#OchMerKaffeTack

It's wild how Astartes might fall to Chaos after the Heresy. I mean, they really haven't known any other life and in what little spare time they have they Astartes to unwind. I'm now imagining some clean cut recently-Imperial-Fist or something standing bolt upright in his new brass and pink armor yelling I'M HERE FOR SEX DRUGS AND ROCK AND ROLL a moment before he turns to the weird warped thing to his left and politely asking "how DOES one sex, drugs and rock and roll anyway?"