Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Like we’ve reached the stage we’re just them saying anything is basically a CPTSD trigger; admittedly their statements are all inflammatory, but I don’t think that’s all of why they managed to get me this pissed off.

And hearing that THING address, the UN brings me to the ethical issue sooner than I’d like. I think it’s never truly ethical to wish death on somebody but sometimes it’s the most ethical behavior I can choose and since I’m not in a position to either kill or save the people I feel need to die, it’s largely academic.

Were I to take direct action AGAINST anyone from random Cybertrukk drivers to Trump, Vance, Noem or any of the truly awful people, THEN I’d have an ethical dilemma. There is no ethical dilemma in hating people who have done hateful things, OR in opposing them through peaceful means intended to prevent harm.

I think I’m okay in my current milquetoast feeling actions/reactions, even if my crap temper and personal history with bullies means I WANT to lash out.

much as I’d like to love everybody OR be okay with self assured anger, the further I get from the direct instigators the more muddied things get. And ultimately my big take should be “I want these people to stop doing harm” not “I want these people punished” although it is obvious some will not stop doing harm unless dead or otherwise disempowered. I would be ethically wrong to hate all Republicans; I am not ethically wrong to hate the upper echelon or their SS.

see if I actually lived in the Jurassic Parkverse, I would not want to take big resort vacations to see huge dinosaurs, I would like to adopt all the small stuff. Can I have a pet Yi qi? Could I have a Psittacosaurus to hug on?

etc etc

and it would be a COMPLETELY TERRIBLE IDEA.

This is all about growing up in this grinding incessant context of punishment; as a kid I had exactly no way to judge that something not actually intended as a punishment wasn't just more being punished. It's got exactly nothing to do with holidays or religion except this is another place it happened in childhood.

holidays certainly help with realizing how much space in my brain is taken up with;

"I MUST do something I'm not really interested in/so even without an authority as negative as in childhood, my assumptions kick in/this mandatory thing is good but between how I don't want to do it and how I'm innately BAD, I'll invariably fail/and when I do so I'll be punished, probably disproportionately/so now I have even less interest in doing it, and therefore more certainty I'll fuck up and be punished."

#drawings today just a page of furries and furry portraits.

in about 80 minutes, I made three different banchan for lunch this coming week, and pasta with (Russian/Ukranian) meat sauce for dinner (plus about one meal of leftover meat sauce)

I also cleaned up some fridge fossils, unloaded the dryer, cleaned most of the dishes involved in cooking, etc.

Bleah

#drawings from yesterday while visiting my mom

#drawing from Thursday before stuff pissed me off too much for me to post it.

"there are more of these small footprints"
"great, we're gonna make camp in the middle of a pixie nest"
"pixies can be okay"
"we're gonna be up all night with them singing about HERE COMES YOUR MAN"

#DnD

* Barbarian - Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue with pages stuck together
* Bard - A History of Reynard the Fox
* Cleric - The Dhammapada
* Druid - A Sand County Almanac
* Fighter - Osprey Campaign Series 5 "The Ardennes"
* Monk - A Book of Five Rings
* Paladin - LotR dogeared in all the Good Bits Where Someone Dies Heroically
* Ranger - All the Rain Promises and More: A Hip Pocket Guide to Western Mushrooms
* Rogue - The DM's copy of the Monster Manual
* Wizard - A Wizard of Earthsea
* Warlock - large compilation of Doctor Strange comics

oh you’re having problems with red skinned four armed aliens implanting eggs in your villagers?

sounds like a xill issue

rich cishet goyim with exactly NO skin in this damn game. Fucking collaborators. I should just give up on voting.

please tell me it's part of the natural cycle of being a constituent to be incredibly pissed off at your fucking so called representatives

critics complained that so called takosatsu shows should be octopus outfits only but piped down after Ika Rider Black was a runaway success

“Obi Wan Gay. Maybe he means Ben Gay?”
“Pardon me, sir?”
“Old Ben’s a hermit who makes ointment out beyond the Dune Sea.”

LATER

“Uhh he claims to be the property of an Obi Wan Gay, do you know him?”
“Of course I know him, he’s me! I haven’t been called Gay since about the time your father died.”

40k thought; Space Wolves getting tattooed with knotworks centered around the I/O interface ports embedded in their skin