Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

there are just some really ugly things about American national myth which play right into what's going on now. While slums and sweatshops full of immigrants plug right into our myths about just plain folk versus the wealthy steamrollering liberties, I'd wonder if the "everyone's welcome and can be equal here, even us" mythology was way more a thing for my family than for the southerners I grew up with; that differing versions of American myth is part of why I'm not MTG (same home state).

this is being such a terrible night on sleep I'm sorely tempted to ask for the day off

ugh

I am having one of those "it takes nothing to shake me up" moments. Part of why I empathize with horses, something or possibly the right panic-enducing happens, and I stop being smart and competent.

doesn't hurt that I ran smack into something that set off the ethnic self-loathing.

#drawing from Saturday and tonight

Rationally, I know that a lot of different triggers got pulled and between ADHD and past trauma, the intensity on those triggers is cranked all the way up. IRrationally I feel like the worst shit in the world and my failure to kill myself is further proof of how fucking villainous and worthless I am.

I just have to hope that eventually my rational knowledge will become my emotional knowledge, on days like this.

#drawing last night

The really uncomfy truth about me and wanting to be a professional artist is, it was always my indoctrination (you're good at THIS THING, therefore you should do THIS THING to make money) and my baggage (maybe if I do THIS THING, I can get out of being relegated to disposable convenience for the actually valued people, forever).

This is a pretty rickety scaffold to hang any sort of professional ambitions from, and faced with anything that fits my indoctrination that the adults/peers have engineered it so I can't go in whatever direction, I give up waaay easily.

amazed there isn’t a yinglet fan publication yet

a zat zine

the “Akira slide,” an animated trope usually accompanied with the sound effect “Akira slide whistle”

SPICY DARKSTALKERS ART featuring winning with Anakaris

so SO spicy

A DUNGEONESS crab! You know a hot crustacean babe wearing very little in an adventure for 4-6 characters of levels 10-12

so Blibdoolpoolp

profoundly surprised by the sheer volume of Pawbert Lynxley fanart for reasons I can't explain without spoiling Zootopia 2, though I'm also surprised by the lack of Milton Lynxley fanart, simply because he's a heavyset older guy with facial hair and Gay furries eat that up like it's cornbread

and I'll say it; Republicans are all innately mean. Self justifying bullies who want nothing more than the ability to hurt something as much as they possibly can - a pet, a wild animal, a neighborhood, official bad guys abroad or here - while getting to be the good guys.

#drawings tonight

Also while posting alt text earlier, I found that autocorrect decided “Necron” was “newton.” So here are some fig necrons and their translucent carrying tray

#drawing tonight partly to do vehicles for a change and partly because it’s raining

#subpost there’s Showa and Heisei Era Gojira so if your D&D characters face the tarrasque or w/e is that technically Kamakura Period Gojira

in an attempt to keep up with other theme parks, the French government renames the palace at Versailles "Louis XIV Land" complete with a Sun King mascot suit

#drawings tonight

once the orcs were warlike raiders but these days they do a brisk business in jockstrap/armpit/feet/belly/disembodied hands porn, and if you meet an orc, a drow and a tiefling, the orc is the most likely to have an OnlyFans