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* Cate Blanchett voice * The world has changed. I feel it in the water. I taste it in the air. Once that was was, isn't. And much that is not, was, for there are few now...

* Labyrinth hat voice* Who remember.

* Cate Blanchett clears throat* Who remember. It began with the forging of the Rings of Power. Three were given to the Elves. Seven were given to the Dwarf-lords, great miners and craftsmen. And nine were given to mortal Men who above all else desire power.

* Labyrinth hat voice* Oh, would you listen to this crap?

Today’s Rollins Band listening reminds me of when I made Henry Rollins’ Disembodied Head as a character on a MU*. I think I was testing if anyone hit on him. I couldn’t figure out anything more interesting to do than float into rooms and scream lyrics or just incoherent rage.

This morning while stewing in traffic I think I made some peace with the 80s. It wasn’t a thoroughly lousy decade, it was just a decade like any other, so; some complete shit, and some really nice stuff (which I largely missed out on).

I remember garbage like Reagan, Cold War, racism, crappy top 40s, homophobia, satanic panic, but I also remember AD&D and Oxford Books, and if I’d been a lot luckier I’d have memories full of Little Five Points and a batch of great music and comics.

But yes it’s time to listen to “Seventeen Seconds” again. Definitely the best Cure album other than Pornography and Disintegration.

currently thinking about how the opening to Return of the Jedi has got some sound story reasons behind it, but they aren't really clear and I'm not quite sure how you'd write that so it *would* be clearer.

"the horn of Helm Hammerhand shall sound in the deep!"

Gimli, delighted by a chance to do something dwarfy "YESSSSS!"
#DoNotTOOTIt #DoomTootsAsHePleases

#drawings are some feral characters I did more of today, and some anthro pinups and portraits. Cats and foxes and stuff.

What should I draw if I have any energy when I get off shift?
1) demons!
2) adventurer vs Baryonyx
3) adventurers vs dragon
4) furry stuff

What if this indicates that the problem isn’t people from a nationality/ethnicity you hate, but instead indicates that wars are shittty and the people who want ‘em/profit from ‘em are basically the same guys worldwide?

1) I could really use reassurance from outside that I'm actually good at my job, that I actually am being a supportive family member, and that in general, things aren't quite as bad as my stress levels say they are.

2) Sleep was crummy tonight, I think because I ran into a whole batch of stuff that reminded me of childhood soon. Things just don't remind me of childhood in the good way, you know?

3) This level of ongoing stress I think has gotten beyond my ability to cope with by cooking and drawing, and I think I either need to play hookey from work or I need to actually eat some weed in the evening. Very soon.

what if, instead of going into work, I called in sick, and drove all the fuck to the coast or to Bellingham?

yep, it's another anxiety spike. Just biological cycle meets consistent low level stress is all.

smilodon has got it goin' on
she's all that I need and I've waited for so long
xenosmilus can't you see you're just not the cat for me

Frankly, I do not enjoy being angry or resentful. So one of the many places where I don't understand the fucking enemy is how much they seem to love being angry, or at least using it as a gimmick.

Fortunately for me, I know that if something pisses me off *that* bad, it's almost without doubt something reminiscent of my oh-so-wonderful childhood, and that lessens the chance of it being something I need to be furious about right now.

Reported five of her tweets as harmful. But it's useless to do anything; Twitter's support is notoriously pro-fash, and it's impractical and illegal for me to discuss things in the only manner an antisemite is capable of understanding.

#drawings today, not finished stuff. Thinking about adventures in pseudo-north Africa/Spain with a returned ancient evil, a mysterious information broker and a noble cleric. Some NPCs play cards, and a tabaxi swashbuckler.

Since I’m in a crummy mood, here’s photos of Saturday’s hike; the waterfall, gap in the trees, a stump full of mushrooms, the trilliums blooming.

Let’s hit those “didn’t explain a complex task they demanded I do by rote and when I misunderstood it, that’s clearly my fault” buttons from childhood. Uncomfortable even without the worst abuse my imagination can offer, or the very real figuring out what I actually need to do.

I have moved on to declaring IT'S CHRISTMASTIME to the soundtrack to "Sleepy Hollow."

current mood; happily declaring CHRISTMASTIME! to Danny Elfman's music for "Darkman."