Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

COME ON!
YES I KNOW MY ENEMIES
THEY'RE THE TEACHERS WHO TAUGHT ME TO FIGHT ME!
COMPROMISE
CONFORMITY
ASSIMILATION
SUBMISSION
IGNORANCE
HYPOCRISY
BRUTALITY
THE ELITE!

YOU CRAM YOUR CULTURE DOWN MY THROAT
SAY I'M INFERIOR WHEN I FIND THAT I CHOKE
YOU FILL MY MIND WITH A FALSE SENSE OF HISTORY
AND THEN YOU WONDER WHY I HAVE NO IDENTITY?

I'm going to hang up the phone and then I'm going to show you what you don't want these people to see. A world without YOU. A world without boundaries or borders, without rules and restrictions. Where we go from there is up to you.

Although ya try to discredit
you'll still never edit
the needle I'll thread it
radically poetic
standing with the fury that they had in 66
and like e double I'm mad still knee deep in the system's shit
Hoover! he was a body remover
I'll give you a dose
but it can never come close
to the rage built up inside of me
fist in the air in the land of hypocrisy!

not only does the track "If That's Your Boyfriend (He Wasn't Last Night)" get me to work my hips and shoulders like I'm the femmiest Gay who ever got flogged next to the garlic fries at Folsom, but I actually assumed for the longest time that the narrator/singer was SUPPOSED to be a very Gay man. (Me'Shell is not a very Gay man.)

I'm not entirely SURE why the Yes album "Close to the Edge" is what White Dwarf prior to issue 100 would sound like as music, but it does, at least to me.

oh yeaaaah a "Yes" track longer than some punk *albums*

FIRE!
doo doo doo
I'LL TAKE YOU TO BURN!
doo doo doo doot
FIRE!
doo doo doo
I'LL TAKE YOU TO LEARN!
dooooooo doo
YOU'RE GONNA BURN!
*half naked jogging in place*

@arakin I blame you for how the follow up to "Don't You Want Me" is of course Arthur Brown's "Fire"

you have the right to food money!
provided of course you don't mind a little
investigation
humiliation
and if you cross your fingers
rehabilitation!
Know your rights!
These are your rights!

don't actually know any of the lyrics to these Amon Amarth songs so I'm just gonna yell OTVAR ZA RUSS! FENRIS HJOLDA! and that ought to work okay

My experience and this might be wrong is;

* a lot of homophobes don't want Queers to go away; to shut up and be nice little straights who don't disturb them

* most anti-semites actually want Jews to exist at some level - as converts, as an existential threat looming elsewhere, just they don't want us to exist as real breathing people living nearby with our own identity.

* most anti-Black types don't want Black people to go away; they want a docile, profitable, exploitable underclass; they effectively want slavery back.

Transphobes aren't like the other haters, they don't want the subtler form of genocide where you lose your identity, shut up and behave in whatever ways convenience them. They don't want you detransitioned but theoretically comfortable. Transphobes WANT YOU DEAD.

dopamine or not, I think it'd be emotionally useful for me to see MORE things as goals even if their significance gets completely wiped out immediately in a larger hostile world. Example; yesterday I drove south, did an in person interview, drove back and in the middle of my job hunt found out I didn't get the job.

If I can phrase this as having accomplished a necessary step in this process I hate, one that wouldn't have had ANY chance of working out if I hadn't sunk effort into it, that makes it feel a lot better than just having it be part of an ongoing lifetime of never being good enough.

One complete vicious asshole who's plagued this country for decades, finally dying, doesn't achieve much sadly; like antisemitism and anti-Blackness, nobody loses money as an homophobe and there's a lot of other people out there causing harm, and all I can do is beat myself up for feeling even vaguely glad someone I learned to completely hate is no longer a source of harm.

I remember being a kid when AIDS was at its worst. At the time I had no clue I was Queer, I knew no openly Queer people, I wasn't permitted to know a relative was, I didn't know I was near vibrant enclaves in Little Five Points and Athens.

What I *did* know was that right wingers seemed to be ridiculously happy that folks (whose worst faults I was told were being girly and having ass sex) were dying in complete misery.

Even AT THAT TIME I got a real good idea of who the REAL bad guys were.

unfortunately there's only one person I need to die to solve all my problems for me

and I am unlikely to go away any time soon.

oh wow. Well that took my mood STRAIGHT from "art study and mashups have me feeling up to crunching through email and job applications" to "I am not permitted to off myself so I am trapped until something goes on its own and sadly that's unlikely to be this afternoon."

Copying hands from this gorgeous book of “mythological women” I’m struck by how Japan’s monsters are really influenced by cold winters with thick clothing. “She opened her kimonos and underneath was a skeleton!””She finally got up from the floor far enough we could see her giant spider body!” “Beneath all those sleeves she had snakes!” Etc.

oh yeah it's time for Body Movin', which for some reason was my go-to track for folding laundry for about half a year

Can I be depressed and at the Asian supermarket AND only impulse buy king oyster mushrooms and mugicha and stuff?

I feel like crap about a great deal of things