Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

but... but... how can you possibly be "high on life" that's a depressant!

Condom model kits are called “conpla.”

Too upset to nap apparently?

Artist’s rendition of the Barnes and Noble Bestseller tables.

When the Brits come up with a Belgian sleuth, they come up with Hercule Poirot, when the Belgians come up with a Belgian sleuth, they come up with Inspector Gadget.

bleah, let me guess, this is actually some sort of bullshit gender dysphoria

edit: I did some thinking and yep. It's bullshit gender dysphoria.

"You don't need therapy, you need to get fucked by 14 horny werewolves behind the Waffle House"

"But doctor, I *am* a horny werewolf"

... damnit, this isn't as funny as I thought it was.

Loomis' "Figure Drawing for All It's Worth," sort of a bible to some artists, ends on this comment that ideally you copy off and admire different artists but quietly, to yourself, say "yeah but I like how *I* do things."

and I think that's basically self worth; the world's full of people who are better than you in every conceivable way and somehow you've got to go yeah but none of them are ME, I do ME better than anyone else could.

Great in theory, hard to actually believe, though.

wow

mood crashing again

still?

Trying to get past feeling crummy so making myself post tonight’s #drawing.

Also; today I found what would make a GREAT background track for Call of Cthulhu games.

https://youtu.be/e9BHFHCLbpw?si=unaTCq85aSvG6yZQ

... the only problem is it's hard to listen to this without imagining Terry Gilliam animations

I just wrote the Israeli consulate asking them to please step it down, explaining that I have family in Tel Aviv and online friends in Israel so I'm not unbiased. This will accomplish roughly nothing, but it's important to have lodged a protest through formal channels for the sake of formality imho.

not that this matters as consulates/embassy probably have people outside screaming the usual amount of tolerance towards Jews which I've come to expect in protests, probably met with the careful and diplomatic response I associate with police. You attend as many protests as I have, you get cynical.

Dude, are you physiologically capable of shutting the fuck up? Are you like some sort of shark only with phone conversations rather than movement?

the thing is people get good at what they practice, if they have the luck to do what they feel drawn to do. Consequently the people in power are GREAT at being corrupt politicians, sadistic cops, and greedy execs. The people who WOULD run things better are fixing cars, seeing patients, painting etc.

A cold chill of fear cut through me
I felt my heart contract;
To my mind I brought the image of light,
And I expanded outwards
My fear was just a shadow,
And a voice spoke in my head.
She said; darkness is not the opposite of light,
It’s the absence of light.

Um sorry I meant to say “hey should I post more dick pics?”

Feeling that I am good enough turns out to be a *technical skill*, like cooking or driving, and growing up being *actively told* I’m stupid, inept, ugly, unathletic and evil means when stressed I doubt myself and tend to look externally for reassurance which won’t necessarily come (or which cognitive distortion dismisses) in part *because* of old training that if I can only be good enough I’ll be safe and comfortable, which looms large because PTSD means I suck at thinking there’s a long term.

Day job’s coming to a close tomorrow. Which okay salmon season’s over and it was always a temp deal but still, I was sort of hoping, you know? Gonna see if I can get a reference out of the deal, gonna see if I can get food stamps maybe, gonna try not to [redacted] myself out of fear of homelessness or working at an Amazon warehouse with the rest of my personality going away.

Wow, MORE bad news? This week is just shit.

Gevalt. Are we done with the “publicly correcting coyote” hour please?