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Anyway you probably enjoy #drawings more than feeling alienated and desperate, so here are tonight’s.

I know that dehumanizing your enemy opens up the possibility of incredible horrors. But THEY'RE whining that Netflix is going to turn Looney Tunes Gay, while THEIR CDC advisors set up childrens' deaths; THEIR SCOTUS is willing to reconsider birthright citizenship while I worry about THEIR destruction of the Arctic Refuge; THEIR billionaires spending billions on a dead end project while my life would change completely if I had $20K to my name. Etc etc. And I can't help wondering, are we even the same species, do we even live on the same planet, since even if I wanted to harm them I couldn't, does it really hurt to think these THINGS are completely alien to whatever the hell I am?

If you have a problem, if no one else can help quick-quick and if you can find-find them, maybe you can hire The Eshin

* blast of crummy theme music *

what GW really SHOULD do is cross the confusingly similarly named Clan Eshin and Escher Gangs to get stacked rat girls with big hair, they'd sell a b'jillion miniatures

"the aeldari hate him" uh unspecific, aeldari hate everyone. it's very possible they hate Fabius Bile for having bad hair. in a dark universe full of angry bald dudes, angry dudes with beautiful flowing locks, and angry women with pageboy haircuts, he's the only man still rockin' the Ben Franklin

something that kept me mired in self hate for years, and still shows up occasionally, is that it's hard to separate "I hate being me (with my abilities, experiences and wants)" from "I hate being me (stuck living this way while other 'better' people get to have fulfilling comfortable lives)," especially while stressed, and especially since in childhood everything was some huge moral judgment.

So I'm having a very "I hate being me" day.

Today’s #drawings

#drawing from last night since I don’t have anything finished from this morning to share

Watch on YouTube: Doctor Who The Specials

you know, that's a particularly British combination of TV and music I'd never considered

the lyrics to the Doctor Who theme are as follows

Doctor Who woo hoo
Doctor Who Doctor Who
Who (wee oo wee oo)
Doctor Who who who whoo woo
woo woo wee wa woo
woo woo wee wa woo
wa woo wee wa woo (woo WHOOOO)
Doctor Who woo hoo woo hoo woo hoo woo hoo

I think Jon Pertwee wrote these, not sure.

Also, I have to remember all Republicans are bullies and abusers. No matter how far their power actually reaches they *are* trying to convince us that they can abuse us at any time without accountability.

This weekend's introspection fits into being this pissy/despairing today. I now feel that while self-hate *did* make me less likely to meltdown in ways that could be noticed and punished, the meltdowns were about overwhelm as well as just triggers, so the self-hate wasn't 100% effective; and the down side of greater self worth is being angry at my wants, identity, and safety being discarded for others' convenience at any moment.

Gotta remember this world was full of beauty and brightness before I showed up, and it will still hold beauty and brightness long after shitty Republicans directly or indirectly kill me off.

reiterating my opinion that the line in "Seven Nation Army" about "everyone knows about it from the Queen of England to the Hounds of Hell" means the hellhounds are actually corgis

me, cooking with mayonnaise:

🎵
ohhh, if you feel like givin' me a lifetime of revulsion
I second that emulsion
🎶

There's an old story about a samurai asking a monk to explain heaven and hell. The monk completely goes to town on this poor putz, yelling at him about how ugly, stupid, unkempt, lazy and... he keeps going right up to when the samurai loses it and goes for his sword, and yells "THAT IS HELL!"

The samurai immediately takes his hand off his hilt, breathes, and the world isn't so utterly terrible anymore, and the monk says "and that's heaven."

I live in this story a lot too often for comfort.

https://youtu.be/SEYqGBMDtA0

und sie fragen; welchen sollen wir toeten?
und Sie werden mich sagen horen; ALLE!
und wann die Koepfe faellt
sage ich HOOPLA!
und ein Schiff mit 8 Segeln
und mit 50ge Kanone wird beschwindet mit mir

Mandatory safety video for this agency included some of the common OSHA warnings and “Toxic” was inspirational.

The other art thing I did today was I listened to even more of the Beasties and inked, scanned, stitched and did a little bit of editing on some characters I had lying around October's sketchbook. #drawings

Two #drawings today, listening to QotSA, Dead Can Dance and the Beasties