Adept (Magenta Forge) @MagentaForge@awoo.space

@amalgam It's good. Familiar, comforting. 💙

Tired and emotionally exhausted last night, I laid down to sleep, and

I saw a version of myself, a self image, that I haven't seen for a very long time. Before furry, before most anything.

I saw a variation of her in my dream tonight.

I need to pursue this rabbit hole further, I think.

Expected my tarot cards to tell me my sleeplessness is my own damn fault, but they instead reminded me that the sleep schedule shifting and pressing myself has been for important new financial growth, and that coming up ahead I will need to be patient with myself. Considering usually I get hard truths from my readings, this is surprising - and nonetheless I feel like it's setting my head right. They're not wrong.

Burning incense for the first planting of the new year. Sandalwood, for the associations with home I've come to give it, Frankincense and Myrrh for protection and blessing, plus cone incense made by a spiritworker friend to tie this into the community. https://awoo.space/media/uumg29ggvZ8RPbUNrnE

@reibeatall Not really, except for occasionally look back on them and go "oh yeah, I forgot about that one, that was really weird" and sort of... enjoy them on those grounds?

I've got a folder on my computer for logging dreams that I find particularly interesting, usually because they are so bizarre that I want to record them. I don't use it often, but after my sleep schedule went screwy earlier today, I had quite an unusual one and felt a need to.

The only thing is, while it was the bizarre content and particularly the ending which spurred me to write it down, typing the whole dream out, I realized... there's woo tropes all over here too?

I also need to figure out what praxis means for me. I've been very focused on the building aspect of woo rather than the praxis, so... this is definitely something worth consideration.

I swear I didn't expect my woo to have a cosmology, but... this week I've repeatedly had inclinations towards an inkling of one. We'll see if I can flesh this out a little more with time.

https://awoo.space/media/lAAX2S5t6GNb_rREk9c

I know that I feel a sense of awe and a deep wisdom from pine trees, looming black against a midnight blue sky. This is sacred.

I know I feel very good bringing food and herbs to harvest. The harvest is sacred.

The advisors I've brought forth in my practice... I keep anticipating that there will be four, or thinking I've found a third, but the only two who stick are Andromeda and Selena, embodying reason and empathy. Perhaps the structure is not four-pointed.

So I haven't really updated here; nothing really concrete has developed since the last time I gave an update on my spirituality. I certainly know that certain imagery gives me a sensation of sacredness, and feels profound to me, but I can't quite find a way that it weaves together.

For lately it's mostly been focused on being the best me I can be, leaning on certain metaphors-of-self. A ranger. A knight. A lady knight? I know what feels right, but not why.

@Oneironott One of the earliest and still most common uses for hypnosis I had was for entering that state of mind and helping to install self-help and self-regulation triggers. This is still a major thing I use hypnotic induction for, and this is a perfectly normal thing to want. :)

"I'm still agnostic. But in the words of Elton Richards, I’m now a reverent agnostic. I now believe that whether or not there’s a God, there is such a thing as sacredness. Life is sacred. The Sabbath can be a sacred day. Prayer can be a sacred ritual. There is something transcendent, beyond the everyday. It’s possible that humans created this sacredness ourselves, but that doesn’t take away from its power or importance."

A.J. Jacobs, The Year of Living Biblically

It's not that he's vain. It's that his metaphor is a pop idol, and this is his attempt at apotheosis.

Finally met the internal entity aligned with my west / courage-facing front. Hello, Cleo. Hello, old friend.

@emanate
I've kind of accidentally made my own associations :D; I ended up with...

North: Air (Truth / Knowledge / Honesty)
West: Fire (Courage)
East: Water (Emotions / Care / Empathy)
South: Earth (Community)

Additionally my internal entities / advisors reside at / are associated with different points of the compass.

The Magician's Reflection has to say on the compass that it is a symbol of "guidance, direction, knowledge, intelligence, and right-conduct", but not much else. No mention of associations with the cardinal directions either.