Always tooting for th'antihero @Momentrabbit@awoo.space

@Leucrotta Canada's in a death spiral? Oh dear. (looks out window nervously)

@LexYeen Lumpy Lass in the Cavern of the Ages. What an absolute unit. You may not kill i, this is the model of slabsolute perfection

Now I just need to book an appointment work will let me *leave* for... and then convince my doctor to refer me to a surgeon who's willing to listen to some failled engineering student who's way too keen on exploratory tissuesampling to solve his problems to waste time and funds on an MRI that'll probably *also* be inconclusive, or just put me under and open the damn thing up and take a video . 9.9

I'll need a good elevator pitch.

It seems to be running under the dorsal vein of the hand, too. Usually even the big cysts wind up one side or the other, and rarely reach too far up. But this one's had a while to grow asymptomatic, I suspect.

It *might* be related to the trigger finger affecting my middle digit on that hand, and the wrist movement pain and restristion of flexor movement. It all *fits*... even the inconclusive ultrasound.

Usually such a cyst would grow in all directions, not primarily in the horizonal plane: this has delayed diagnosis. I think I know why, though. I'm on enough blood pressure meds to make a horse woozy, have been for years - and that includes diuretics. So it's been growing in pulses, quite literally, under the constant low pressure of the dermis, spreading like pancake batter.

Entangling with my finger flexors.

Oh, removal is going to be *fun*.

A bit more fluid aspiration mapping the back of my right hand/wrist, and watching surgery on ganglionic cysts on youtube, has lead me to two conclusions.

One: I can be harmlessly drained of a good 20-30 ml of synovial fluid every so often from the reservoirs that cover the space of a business card across the back of my lower right hand, which modestly reduces pain.

Two: I need a hand surgeon consult. There is *no* way I can manage this thing myself.

@Ratttz Need a hug?

@Austin_Dern I know that uncertain feeling - my greyhounds and current scruffmongrels were/are rescues too. How do you ever know if they're waiting for another move...

But I figure if she trusted you enough to be grumpy around you despite all the prior homeshuffling, she'd decided you were ok. And *we* know you did your best for her. 💜

@Phorm I am delighted, encouraged, cheered, invigorated, heartened, and frankly - may I be frank? - *awkwardly* stiff for working hours. XD

*SO* glad to have you back for a spell. n.n 💜

@Austin_Dern She's home. It may not feel like enough right now - it's not how it was supposed to be, and what happened is not what anybody wanted, and it's not what she deserved. But she's at rest, and home with the people who loved her and cared for her. It's where I'm certain she would want to be.

Thank you for sharing your home and hearts with her. Grief. Solace. Comfort.

@Phorm Tide's gotta come in. *keeeeps gently rubbin' that bottle*

@typhlosion Getting by!

@001zlnv Why have I never thought "Shark Sqweek" before? Rife with opportunities! Also, hnngh. *grabbypaws*

@Phorm Something in a Nerf shooter, perhaps, would be nicely symbolic. n.n

@mawr @JulieSqveakaroo
🎶This is how they snuggle up in San Mawrrito,
Get a plush and wrap in blanket like burrito,
Nom its ears and tickle its little feet-os,
Mawr-ri-to!🎶 *the_bun_dances*