you ever just remember an embarrassing thing from like eight years ago and feel awful?
context, because i think it might help to have people see it? maybe that will be reassuring?
like seven or eight years ago we won a raffle a composer was doing for a custom composition, but we misunderstood what the thing was for and asked for an arrangement of a piece we liked because we wanted to have sheet music to try to play it ourselves
it feels like we really squandered that opportunity and also insulted the musician by implying their original work wasn't worth anything or something
and they even went and made a recording of it too, meaning they had other musicians playing the different parts
re: context, because i think it might help to have people see it? maybe that will be reassuring?
we still can't really listen to that piece without being reminded of the whole thing which is a shame because it's a really good piece of music
responses to this would be appreciated, if anyone has reassuring words
i'd like to get away from at least this unimportant thing that our brain has decided to assign undue importance to
@Felthry Figure out who it has undue amounts of importance To, and we can talk to them, the plurality thing is why these are hard to track down.
Had so many of them, everyone took responsibility for theirs in here and the feelings went away. In some cases we had to apologize to the person directly if it was warranted, but most didn't remember it happened.
