Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

Another one of those mornings where I feel like ten days went by in my dreams and there's a restless spirit caged up in here with me.

Oh wait, the girls are still asleep. *Groans* I cannot Describe the sensation of being Awake, Alone, and yet being able to feel some of the thoughts and emotions of the other two while they're Dreaming.

@Verdigris Tohri: I think Keri was making some kinda cryptic post about Gender Dysphoria.

@Cilich Look, that happens for us.

@kelseyhusky hah, already have that phantom hole sensation. It's almost constant.

And yeah. Just like... Right now it's super acute

The more I do work that tends the land, the more connected I feel to the goddess.
This conflicts somewhat with what happens to my Body.
I get filled with cravings, urges, my muscles bulge and I Need to be out there, up to my elbows in dirt.

So spiritually, my reward for service is to be denied.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online someone is exhausted, let someone else front for a bit

@kelseyhusky and this is just To from working out.

I'm kinda afraid of starting estrogen unless I have someone to really satisfy myself with.

I'm hypersexual to begin with, this is like a supercharger.

When you legit get so horny for so long you can't think properly

@robin@snouts.online that was me, teaching Duke to use machine tools

@cozykaffe@snouts.online I have this problem but IRL

@hyratel Also, masculinity is a huge area to explore once you get past the stuff they sell you in a Store.
And Your gender experience will vary based on those around you.

@hyratel Money and logistics are easier with a Thrift store nearby.
That and the secret is to wearing clothes that look Good on you, without aiming for any preconceived gender.
You won't be a NEET forever.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online Keri: I probably got her Going or something.

@Kilroy@snouts.online I was just looking at having to tear mine apart to do the CV axles on my Continental. :/
You can do it yourself, especially if you don't have to press anything apart.

@arina_artemis__ Basically Me.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online Tohri: I wouldn't be surprised if he had a set of Sword-chucks with my makers mark on them in an old war chest.

@kelseyhusky We ARE your friends, and we know folks go thru paranoid episodes now and then.

Yaori: I solved the stupid meatbrain issues by basically doing what the avengers did to make Vision. So now the processes running on That part of the processor are run by Me. It's like using one kind of fucked up to fix another.