Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

Angery smol goodra yells at capitalism

Being Plural is like Dual-Booting your PC when you're 16 and thinking it's Neat to have Windows and Linux on the same PC...

And then Having to keep it that way because Proprietary Software.

And then at 33 a Sysadmin core Finally comes online and starts debugging 20 year old code.

@blackcorvo What you're describing sounds like a form of Abuse you suffered.

One of my alters is like that and it's maddening, and he hates it too. Hugely creative, passionate, Loud, but can't plan and execute anything.

His particular trauma came from being called Bossy, from being denigrated and from being told he was Wrong just to satisfy the Ego of the person saying he was Wrong.

Ironically, Plurality means your mental disorders don't just have Names, they have Home Addresses.

Your 'Notebook' was always there. Everyone has that ability, some kids get it shot off or cauterized when they're in their formative years, and never learn how to access it in a healthy way.

But Oh Boy, are there Workarounds.

Get ready for: A Whole Generation going into decline at once.

@KitRedgrave This is a really good compilation of a lot of stuff I've been having to uncover for myself.

I'm realizing all the 'Therapy' I got was just better ways to be a Slave to others.

Yesterday I stepped out to get an energy drink from the Bodega. I was wearing one of my hoodies and a scale print maxi skirt.

I hear the guy before he comes around the corner in a Nissan Altima, all the windows tinted black, blasting... Something from the stereo.
This is the guy who's been pulling up outside my house at 2AM just to blast the same music.

So, I gave him a nice little Fuck You Dance right there on the sidewalk, made eye contact best I could, and instead of going to the Bodega, I turned left to go the long way around, because he'd doubled back and parked his car there.

And then followed me down the street I was walking on, to pick shit with me.

I saw the gold grill. You don't get that kinda money selling Weed. Just Opiates. So I went off on the guy, with that crazy berserker grin that says 'I'm looking forward to taking my Month out on you"

He drove off saying something about my Mom (You know, my Abuser) so I yelled at the retreating coward "You never wanna Meet my momma, she made ME!".

I'm sick of taking other people's antisocial shit. They wanna beat up the longhaired queer enby guy in the Long Skirt, they're gonna get a rude surprise.

Thinking back, I'm realizing that the standard reaction to me being Upset or unhappy was for people to tell me to not take things other people said "Personally"

Like, what does that mean? The other person Clearly meant to demean me. Letting it roll of my back only makes them up their attacks.

Turning the other cheek only gave them another cheek to fuck up.
Being like the Water just meant I got Polluted.

Looking back, all the Altruism was co-opted to feed emotional vampires and monsters. And standing up for myself wasn't an option...

Because I was always Surrounded by these monsters. I'd stand up to one, only to be pig-piled. At home, and at work.

I'm free of that now. If I get myself into another situation where I'm Surrounded by Vampires... I'm going full Werewolf.

Anyone considering the supernatural impact of all of humanity being just a Teeny bit psychic now that we're all networked with magic glass rectangles?

Because I'm thinking a Lot about myth and shared belief and how that kinda Creates a Spirit World.

How getting masses of Humans all believing the same thing, the same way, can effect All of human cogitation and way we Look at the world.

And therefore... How that rebounds and then reinforces a common idea of a world behind the world.

@MadestMadness Might want to check out the Gnostics.

Because I feel like the Gnostic idea of Christ is closer to a healthy belief structure.

@typhlosion @dogfluid@snouts.online @cozykaffe@snouts.online I'm imagining a bunch of hyperfurries sitting in a conversation pit bottomless, just casually walking it while having a conversation about anti-fascism and socialism while a two meter tall crystal in the center just glows ominously.

Capitalism is just a system that treats Malignant Narcissists the way They like to be Treated, and leaves pro-social people in the lurch for their excesses.

Re-orient your thinking That way, and it becomes really obvious who the Real Humans are, and who the Meatbots are.

@Cilich Yaori: Please tell me I haven't been hanging out in Your head. o_o Because, uhhh... Yeah.