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I went away from last night with the loose feeling like things went bad, even though I had fun. That in itself has become an ingrained feeling due to my previous and shifting understanding about what it is to "be healing" or "healed".
The goal isn't and shouldn't be "can deal with emotions/mental states like a neurotypical person and get through the evening without bumps"
It's "Can have bumps while accepting that I am neurodiverse and still have a fun, good time."
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So, in reflection I am almost in awe of the fact that I had fun and had frisky, positive experienced AND bumps of large dysphoria and depression that DIDN'T ruin my whole evening.
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@starkatt @Oneironott +100 - you are on the path of healing, friend, it's just hard to see while you're walking that path yourself.
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@Oneironott you did both a good job being present and taking care of yourself, friend. I'm really glad you were there.