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@KawaSeadrake @Oneironott I went full F ("y'never go full F!") and realized I felt almost as dysphoric on that end of the spectrum as I did in the first place???? So I floated more towards the feminine side of the middle and that feels pretty comfortable.
I confuse people in public. Most default to feminine pronouns, some assume masculine, and the rare gem recognizes me for what I am and uses they/them or asks for my preferred pronouns (and totally makes my day).
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@Oneironott @KawaSeadrake I never correct anyone, 'cause I've determined that my gender isn't really anyone else's business. It's part of my identity, and I share that with people I want to be closer to. ♥️
Related thoughts: I sometimes wonder if I lean to the feminine side because I'm afraid that by being more masculine I'll believe that I somehow failed in transitioning or something? I don't think that's the case, but it's something I find myself wondering about.
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@mawr @KawaSeadrake there is always a lot of factors to work through. It's particularly hard to remember how dysphoric I was before so I end up thinking that sometimes too, but then I remember how terrible it was and how much I don't like it >.>
