bio parents (neg)
Realizing more and more how fucked up my upbringing was and how wronged I was as my mother sends me texts trying to guilt me into this and that.
I'm nearly 30 and just learning how to love the nature of myself as an introvert and dreamer. As a creative mind who wants nothing more than to spend life writing stories.
But no, I struggle to find lucrative options instead because I didn't have a a family that backed me, and certainly not society.
I'm tired, everyone.
changing life course (neu)
Surprise, I was shoved against everything that I was and enjoyed and ended up hating myself in a hole that took decades to crawl out of. Gods fucking damnit.
changing life course (neu)
I'm making progress, though, with help from so many. I'm glad I have that chance. 💕
changing life course (neu)
@CoronaCoreanici yup! And I'm really glad for that!
changing life course (neu)
@Oneironott Good to hear you're making progress ^.^ Keep it up!
@Oneironott
I had a song arrive in my head nearly fully formed, a while back.
The part I remember the most, still, is the refrain.
"I
Am none of those things
That you want me
To be."
@emanate mmmm very relatable
changing life course (neu)
My larger transition has been about screaming THIS IS BULLSHIT into the faces of everyone tugging me to conformaty against who I am. I guess my career path has been the same. I'm learning to like myself, and learning what that means, In that my desires and passions should have always been encouraged, not discouraged.
It's about escaping this society's grasp on my mind and gaining back parts of myself.
This world sucks.
My life has sucked a lot
NO MORE.