-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

I posted all that to twitter initially.
I don’t know why, since i feel I’ll get more solidarity here.
I fantasize a lot about death being this moment where we finally wake up elsewhere. Like… a finger snap and i’m… well… i guess it’s more of a feeling for me.

I will never know.
I will never feel it.
I will die with this ache in my heart.
I will die one day in this body
With these hands and feet
With this nose and arms and legs.
I will die in this body
And it will never truly be okay.

How it might feel to be able to go to sleep knowing that it’s not a dream. That you will wake up feeling just as right and whole.
How would it feel not to have this aching pain anymore.

I would give a lot of things to be able to see myself as i should be. To feel it all...
I devote a lot of time into trying to do so hah... but...
It really never is quite like it would be.

You ever imagine how it might feel to have that first moment of just… pure relief. Breathing in, and feeling the body you should have. Seeing it. Sensing it. A big sigh and just… calm.
The moments after the excitement when everything is just suspended in time with such glow.

Assigned Toy At Creation

I just saw an ace otherkin dragon say that they “traded their sexuality in to become a dragon” and i’m just like
Fuck yeah you go 👍🏻

But like
Ultimately i should be losing weight…
Siiiggghh.
I want to be fatter
But I can’t/shouldn’t be :|

I've been gaining weight and my libido is increasing... related???

Likely >.>

I like being chubby >.>

Done by spaghettee on birdsite :D
https://awoo.space/media/29z2wvvCmDo384sKdoM

I hope i make you feel a little more You
Because you deserve it. You deserve to be seen and known as you truly are
I aim to see the glimmer in you beneath it all
I aim to celebrate the wonder of You and Me and Us
You are truly a wonder, and i am so very glad to be here with you :)

Now that a lot of this week’s stress is over im looking forward to more move-planning

Coyotes are friends

Awooooooooooooo

It is likely that my father intentionally fucked up the last repair to my car and it’s the reason i’m in this mess.
I don’t know what to say or think
Just glad i have support and family elsewhere