-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

Like... sometimes I just want to feel something slide into there and just lock into place

nape ports

hey I'm like
a little buzzed
whats up

diap on main

bunny butts

On the note of Seeming, they did a cover of Leonard Cohen's "Avalanche" and it's pretty fucking chilling.

https://seeming.bandcamp.com/track/avalanche

I think maybe that's the moment I started believing my self narrative, and deeply and truly giving in to the concrete truth of myself as nonhuman.

I remember having late summer days last year talking to my good friend and fellow 'kin about the past and my amazement that... "not being/feeling human" is tied to my motivations in life. my early dreams and just... so MUCH of my life.
I'd think about that more and more and come to the stunning realization that somehow I have always seemingly been -this-. And it's okay if others have different narratives but I found beauty in that, in those moments.

"And if you climb
Back in time
You'll find the breath
That gave birth to the whirlwind"

(Seeming - Talk About Bones)

I can't help but thinking about these lyrics and how beautifully true this is to me own self-reflection and life. SOL: A Self-Banishment Ritual is relatable in so, so many ways, but this part might be the most notable part of the whole album to me.

One week…

The spoiler is that you escape through being sold by the plushie shop

🎶 I'm at the plushie shop
🎶 I'm at the escape room
🎶 I'm at the combination Neptunian Escape Room and plushie shop

And honestly, yeah…
I believe in myself. My capability and my tenacity. I’m still getting better. Still improving ^.^ but i got this 💙

What you bring out in me... genuinely surprises me. My friends... and this tribe...has changed my life.

What glow you have brought to my life, you absolutely lovely, beautiful beings.

Maybe it's a really sappy thing, but I feel more comfort in that then I ever expected to feel.
I don't know what comes next. I don't know what the bad times look like, or the good times. I can't even see the situation that surrounds them.

But I know who they'll be with.
and I feel calm because of that.

I think maybe for the first time I... largely don't know what comes next. I don't know where things are going to fall. I have reliance on community and friends but I don't know how that looks socially.
I guess there is this stark realization that I'm not really... guided by what comes next, but... who.