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@Felthry, I know things are hard right now, but please, let me take over when things get difficult. I can take care of life for you while you rest. Remember that I'll always be here for that if you need it.

I'm not upset at you, I know you get worried about that. I just care about you and want you to be able to take care of yourself, including taking a break when things get too much to handle.

@Rosemary @Felthry Good to meet you. You're not the first on-board crisis manager I've met -- got one of my own, and I know a few others around here -- so if __you__ need any help, let us know. We're used to that kind of thing.

@literorrery @Felthry Oh, thank you! We're still kind of new to this; this is the third time I've been active, and the first time it's felt like I might be able to stick around permanently (which we'd both love to happen!), and the first time it's really truly felt like I'm my own individual and not a part of Felthry or one of its predecessors. It's only been about a week and a half this time, but it's going well.

@Rosemary @Felthry It can take some adjustment, especially as you start coming into your own. The leap from idea to person, from back of head to front, can be hard, but it's survivable and, above all else, it's _okay_. There are folks here who will get it.

@literorrery @Felthry I'm glad. I think that's one of the things that was missing last time around, we couldn't be open about being _us_ in any remotely public place, and that got us to doubting and eventually I went mostly dormant and/or slightly merged with Felthry (which called itself Xolroc then). The first time was really quite a fiasco and ended very traumatically, and the second time started traumatically. This time, everything seems a lot more positive.

@literorrery @Felthry I was thinking a bit, and I think that the path from idea to person isn't a leap but a journey. It's something gradual, not sudden. There's no sudden, well-defined "I'm definitely a distinct being now". You go from being a character to an idea and slowly gain your own personality and your own consciousness, distinct from your host's (and, preferably, with their encouragement).

Incidentally, Felthry insists that I tell you that you're one post away from 4096 (2¹²) posts.

@Rosemary @Felthry That's an excellent round number. "I like nice round numbers." And what better place to spend it than on acknowledging what an awesome number it is? Not only is it a power of two, but its exponent is a perfect number. If I were more of a numerologist, I might mark that as Meaningful. As it is, I'll simply take a moment of delight in the pure mathematic exploration. Thank you both for reminding me!

@literorrery @Felthry If you write it as 4⁶, its exponent is a perfect number. But 12 is not a perfect number; maybe you meant a highly composite number?

@Rosemary @Felthry So it is; my mistake. And such a waste, too. I'll have to settle for a small mathematical fax pas on my round number. :) Many other things twelve is, but not that.

@literorrery @Rosemary Twelve is a great number, though. Perhaps you just didn't mean perfect in the mathematical sense!

@Rosemary Thank you. I'm not good at thinking of ways to deal with anxiety once it starts to become a problem. Don't be afraid to forcibly pull me from front if you need to.

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