dreams, loading ready run (~)
Then I woke up.
It was a hell of a realistic dream though, including a lot of detail that I don't normally see. I was also self-aware enough to find it weird that I didn't remember how I'd driven across the border sans passport and birth certificate.
Also everybody who had facial hair looked really impressive up close. And Cam was a sweetie.
dreams, loading ready run (~)
It was down to me and one or two other people (or maybe they were the only others who showed up?) and then I got asked about my weaknesses. And I said, "Well, my shitty ex left me with panic attacks, though I've largely figured out how to manage those. I'm visibly trans though, so that may cause some problems whenever I appear on stream if the viewers aren't cool with that."
And everybody collectively had a sigh at the sorry state of things and there were hugs.
dreams, loading ready run (~)
I dreamt I skipped work to go interview with Loading Ready Run since they were having some kind of open interview event thing for a job position. Super realistic dream, up to people trying to give me tips and advice for an American commuting to work across the border every day. There were like, workshops where you demonstrated comedy and writing skills, plus Foley stuff - I got points for recognizing the Yoragh scream and calling it that...
MU69 is a contact binary; the speed of collision between the two lobes was probably only a few miles per hour. The white 'neck' between the lobes is most likely material that has settled on the steep slopes between. It rotates with a period of about 15 hours.
transfeels, seat up
I went to use the women's room at the therapist's office, and... the seat is up.
I see you, sister. I see that you've been here and it makes me happy to imagine you, transperson that I shall never know... I see the ripples that you leave in the world and I am glad. Be strong and follow your path.
...I mean, unless the men's was in use and some guy had to come in here and then forgot to put the seat down.
That's a solid win on #LDB, now on to the bonus round!
At low ebb (-)
Yesterday was the shortest day of the year, last night the longest night. It's not quite the point where my powers are weakest - that comes in February - but it's still a definite low-water point for me and my energy.
Things are getting better, but they're getting better very _slowly_. There's a lag time before my melatonin levels start to fall and the seasonal affective disorder begins to dissipate. And in the mean time, everything is just slowly getting harder.
Harder to keep anxiety levels down. Harder to keep my spirits up. Harder not to dwell on old dreams and pains.
I'm trying. But there's a long haul still.
Happy Solstice everyone.
This is where things stop getting darker and colder for us northern hemisphere folks.
This is the time of year to celebrate New Beginnings.
Focus your thoughts on the idea that every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end, and that you have the power to choose your path, even if you feel like you're lying to yourself.
Because in a world of really dark realities, the only way we can make light is to do it ourselves.
Sooooo... does "patapan" count for the little drummer boy game? #ldb
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