If you just have one account on one instance, you may not realize that Mastodon federation -- the means by which toots are sent from instance to instance -- is not instantaneous.
It may be seconds or minutes for a toot to traverse even directly connected instances. This depends on server load and how many messages are in the queue.
Toot lag. It's a thing.
The more you know! 💫
Birbhell link: fox grading thread https://twitter.com/ColinJCarlson/status/929624445106319360
* very good thread
* kind of long, worth it
* I giggled a lot
* some neat fox pictures
* some foxes I did not know existed
* A+
Before the day is completely done, pour one out for Carl: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSgiXGELjbc
Today is Carl Sagan's birthday!
If you've never heard his famous Pale Blue Dot talk, please, take a few minutes. ♥
https://youtu.be/GO5FwsblpT8
"Carl Sagan - Pale Blue Dot" [3:31]
Opus Magnum spoiler, purified gold
This is maybe the worst thing I've ever done:
https://awoo.space/media/Od712QREv0lG-LU-eso
Also that took me like three tries to do right, so I should probably go to sleep now.
panic attack trigger
One of my triggers for panic attacks is kids with parents. If that sounds weird, remember that the cause of all this trauma was finding out that he had not only been lying to me, but also was married and had two children. I see young kids and parents and I sometimes can't help but remember.
One of my oldest friends is now married and his wife is about to give birth, and it is starting to get REALLY HARD to be in the same room as them.
therapy, trauma, ptsd, panic
Cute lizard tax, since you've gotten this far:
https://i0.wp.com/pulptastic.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/12/cute-reptiles-141__880.jpg?w=662
therapy, trauma, ptsd, panic
Fairly sure most people reading this are going to have some variation on a "No duh" reaction, but hey, at least I'm addressing it now instead of just in moments of "weakness".
I got real mixed feelings about saying "survivor" since others have been through way worse that me. But it is what I aim to do.
therapy, trauma, ptsd, panic
* yesterday. Our appointment was on Saturday, I've just been rolling this around in my head for a while.
therapy, trauma, ptsd, panic
Turns out I just straight up have panic attacks, and when I beat them back before they really start is when they're just panic symptoms.
I really didn't want to think of myself as having been hurt this badly, but I think that was largely for machismo bullshit reasons that I didn't want to admit it. For obvious reasons I'm kinda abandoning that stance.
Hi. I survived some pretty awful shit, and I'm still learning to cope with it.
Rare coastal dragoness, often found by sunny sea cliffs. Nonbinary but fairly femme-leaning. If you're under 18 don't follow.