Soreth @Soreth@awoo.space

That was such a marvelous Twelfth Night feast! :D

I think I have some kind of deep-seated need or requirement to break emotionally every so often. It just seems to happen, doesn't even need a triggering event.

I guess it's a good thing that I've been learning (slowly, very slowly) to bounce back more quickly.

Tired but don't want to sleep. Brain's still not really feeling all that great. I still feel like I'm some kind of faker, failure, whatever. I don't know. I'm going to stay up to make myself more tired and then try to sleep.

What do you do for those days when you just feel like all you're doing is pretending? When you feel like you should just give up and go back to the pronouns you can't stand anymore? When it feels like you should throw away all your feminine clothes and go back to pants and a t-shirt forever?

So some friends of mine are starting a D&D 5e game, and I got a little curious and poked at it. I'm not actually in this group, mind, but I think I figured out how to make a bird-girl Jedi. Gonna file that for later.

Moon's full, everyone howl please.

Remember: Fucking up the year is no big deal this year. A 7 turns so, so easily into an 8.

So I'm super late to the party here, but I just found out that Alexis Janson, of MegaZeux fame, won the great designer search at Wizards of the Coast like a decade ago. Alexis Janson, who wrote MegaZeux, one of my all-time favorite games back in the 90s... and someone who vanished from the face of the earth for a good long time, making quite a mystery to the megazeux community.

It's SO COOL to see an old role model reappear. :D

I cried after we got home because I just saw a movie that told me in no uncertain terms that it's okay to be a woman. And as much as I say that I'm no more a woman than I am a man, that was really really deeply meaningful to me. It was such a good movie, it's in my top three Star Wars films. Maybe top two.

Went skimming through my older photos and saw a few of myself when I was... a lot more male-presenting. Strange feelings now. I cut a hell of a figure in a tux for a wedding, once. That van dyke really did look pretty okay on me. And I've put on a fair amount of weight.

...Looking back is _weird_.

I know exactly what I need to do now that I'm off-call. I have a medible that I need to take and then snuggle cuties for several hours.

Just witnessed a heated debate on a discord server after one person asked that "triggered" please not be used as a joke, as they have ptsd.

I fucking left after the general consensus was "No, we don't like language police."

And nothing of value was lost.

Loss.jpg is the new "You just lost the game"

Welp. Apparently we get the 26th off this year, because the 24th was a Sunday? It's on the official HR calendar, wasn't on the one I was using at work.

Back home and back to bed for me