Demi @demi@awoo.space

this is day 3 on tramadol; so far so good. it is definitely taking the edge off the pain but would like it to do more, or rather, i need the pain levels lower than this to be functional to do my job. i have to give this a few weeks before i can properly evaluate how well it works.

so far today i haven’t had dizzy spells or the drowsiness of the last two days so hopefully that means this is the end of those bad side effects

lately my elbows have been really shit and that is a big problem for me; not being able to bend my elbows for any length of time is going to ruin my mental health more than anything else as i cannot type, use my phone, or even read a book

biggest difference i see in being on this platform is that you treat people like friends, not like they are your audience. i think i see the most discontent from people that used twitter as a broadcasting platform. grumpy elitist white dudes in tech.

i’m so tired, i feel beaten, all i want is someone to hold me and reassure me that i won’t lose them even though i feel like i am losing my sense of self

also am i understanding this correctly that microsoft provides backup tools built into the OS but they don't recommend using them at all as they aren't maintained?? the lack of info and amount of problems i am having is making me very upset

so, I was on windows 10 insider builds on my surface; I really really really want to make these stop and go back to the public build of windows 10. windows seems to imply that this can be done but it doesn't let me directly do it?? can someone help me out here?

fuuuuck i think i’m getting a cold :(

it’s funny that out of all the drugs i’m on, spiro causes the most raised eyebrows from doctors — i get no questions about anything else, but always a question about that

on the up-side, it really makes me want to sleep which is good since i don’t get enough to offset my level of exhaustion; but at the moment it seems to be a trade of pain for this disorienting feeling — again, not my first choice but not having the pain is huge.

the tramadol so far seems to make me floaty/dizzy and drowsy. it makes me drowsy even thought i’m on a stimulant at the same time, which is, less than ideal but hopefully it goes away in a few days

so now it seems i have a bit less pain but slightly more tiredness; hopefully this changes in the next free days because this level of tiredness is going to put me to sleep