Demi @demi@awoo.space
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- She/Her
- Website
- https://pewpewthespells.com
number witch | 𓂧𓅓𓇌 | ⚧ ⚢ | unapologetic trans | hacker | chronic illness
Joined Apr 2017
watched ocean’s eight tonight and wow that was a really fun movie
suicide/chronic illness (-)
i feel,,, i feel terrible. i am scared because my body isn’t under my complete control, i’m scared of what might happen next, i’m scared that so many things i’ve lost i’ll never get back. i don’t want to be like this forever
suicide/chronic illness (-)
i think i was under the mistaken impression that stopping the pain would make me feel better. that really isn’t the case and i need to recognize the mass of feelings i am currently repressing rather than consider atm. still feel dangerously close to the edge of suicide because of how helpless i am to this illness
i finished the octo expansion campaign yesterday, finally get to play as an octarian!!
in typical fashion, i seem to be accumulating books to read faster than i can finish them.
Demi
boosted
heckin' self actualizing trans person, modifies body according to need with pills and injections purchased off the dark web using bitcoins
cyberpunk fans: no not like that, a robot arm or something. gross.
super tired today; not fatigued though. like my body is saying “you need to sleep” rather than “you have no energy”.
suicide
me, this morning: hopefully another day of continuing this upward trend of feeling good
me, now: i feel so awful just kill me already
Demi
boosted
when a trans woman pays for her hormones by being a tattoo artist is that tat for tit send toot
chronic pain/drugs (~)
i think today would be a 10 on the pain scale but with the tramadol it is more like 7 or 8 instead. this is very much not ideal but it is better than nothing, but at this point it is hard to psychologically tell the fundamental difference between an 8 and a 10
chronic illness
well, i’m still feeling dreadful; not sure if i want to do my labwork today after all
chronic illness (-)
well fuck, the tremors are kinda intense this morning and it’s hard to deal with the prospect of what this might mean long-term.
doctors/chronic illness (~)
got an appointment with my pcp today, then need to do labwork for the pain doc, then a surgery consult on thursday. only now realizing it is the end of august already and i’ll need to start working again in two months is scary
drugs
starting to get a bit drowsy; but this is much later in the day so it is relatively tolerable. hopefully this goes away or stays at a manageable level/time as to not interfere with daytime activities
holy shit, what?! dropkick on my devil episode 7 was actually,,, wholesome???
unsurprisingly, lol, my favorite song so far on this album is “do not disturb”
new music!
1. expectations - hayley kiyoko
2. vicious - halestorm
3. the now now - gorillaz
4. tranquility base hotel & casino - arctic monkeys https://awoo.space/media/-J9kgWUD26cYtM5E4fo
i am super digging the new halestorm album “vicious”; i have really needed a hard rock sound-track lately.
chronic illness/drugs (+)
also means i could consider doing things with local friends too!! i haven’t done anything with anyone almost all year that didn’t involve traveling significant distances anyway; so being able to go out and see people would be so nice
chronic illness/drugs (+)
i am excited about the fact that i feel well enough to travel again. i can see the people i love and actually do things with them
- Pronouns
- She/Her
- Website
- https://pewpewthespells.com
number witch | 𓂧𓅓𓇌 | ⚧ ⚢ | unapologetic trans | hacker | chronic illness
Joined Apr 2017
