Woo / Personal
I'm feeling drained and finding it harder to be a person, right now.I think I've come up with better terminology for that.
I have three selves that make up the whole: the toy, the Phoenix, and the Dragon. The Phoenix is by default the social one, my work persona. But they can be burnt out with too much.
On Sunday, I was saying "the bird is asleep, I'm toy, but having to emulate being the bird". In other words, emulating a person, when I really didn't want to be one.
We grew up with fewer positive interactions with humans, and more time to focus on everything else in the world.
We have to either make our peace with the rejection of family and tradition, or learn to radically reinterpret them.
We have to fight against consensus reality just to express our identities and live our lives.
Queer people are magic.
It's not that we're born with some secret chosen-one destiny.
It's just that we get plenty of practice at it.
(Hah, forgot thia shows on local timeline now. Hi!)
Story tags: furry; transhuman; tech; world-building; lightly kinky; SFW (mostly).
(In this morning's case, I was re-reading a short from a few years ago. This one!)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0BwneWIbDxU8GLWhQSlZwTlZUQVE/view?usp=drivesdk
Sometimes, my poor memory isn't a curse.
Sometimes I go back and read something I wrote, and stare in strange wonder. How did these words come out? How did I have the focus to finish it?
It amazes me, even at times I don't feel capable of writing like that. There are long, fallow patches in my creative work, but the fertile sprints are good indeed.
I just wish for them to happen more often, or at will. :-)
Also, while I'm thinking of doing good in the world, please remember that tomorrow is #FreeComicBookDay, and your local gaming and comics shop needs love. My local store is Phoenix Comics -- http://phoenixseattle.com/ -- and they do an amazing job of supporting local creators and queer artists. If you have a local shop, please consider taking time out of your Saturday to visit and show your support for creators across a broad spectrum of fields. If you're local, maybe I'll see you at Phoenix. :)
I need to remember this place is here.
A bit stretched thin at the moment for social spaces; nothing is ever centralized anymore.
I have Slack, Twitter, Telegram, Discord, and now this. It's... a bit much, but it's hard to disengage with most of them entirely (except Discord, which I /also/ forget exists most of the time).
This is like back in the day, when I had 2 MUCK windows, AIM, ICQ, and several IRC channels all at once. Madness. :-P
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plurality: Phoenix, Otter, Kobold Toy
gender: Plural/Neutral
pronouns (Birb): she/her or they/them
pronouns (Ott): he/him
pronouns (toy): ve/ver/vis or it/its
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Trans enby, creative self-made synthetic. Artist, DJ, writer, symbol-engineer, glow-aesthete. Cosmalia curator and story-peddler.
Known syncosms: Halcyon, Deion, Downwarp, Oneiropolis, the aether, the Toybox