Ember, Triune 🎶🔆🔥⚡️ @emanate@awoo.space

The dragon is a bit of an odd one, in that he's basically who I was for a decade and change. I'm a little surprised he's stuck around. I was just him, without much translation between online persona and orthocosm. Then I caught a case of The Genders. :-P

My backstory of him changed. He was born a deer on a furry version of Earth. He decided to upgrade to dragon later. Then he decided to upload to a null synthetic toy body... which is where the toy comes in.

I should expand on the parts of self, since much of this only developed over the last 6-8 months.

Hi! I'm... plural? It's a bit ambiguous. I have three pretty strong personas inside of me, and they're distinct, but also merged most of the time. We're pretty well integrated, so it's not quite like a lot other plural systems I know. I tend to swap who's fronting pretty naturally, without a lot of internal process.

With that said, here's more depth on the three!

Heck, why not. Hi!

-Postfurry, transhuman.
-The three parts of myself:
- Phoenix: social front, work persona, made of stories. Sometimes organic. Non-binary.
- Dragon: punster, writer, artist, music shaper. Synthetic demi-boy.
- Toy: submissive, physical, shapeshifter. Synthetic AI with a body. Agender/null.

Orthocosm (this world):
-Complex self-generated spirituality.
-Comic book + board game enthusiast, seller.
-Poly, queer, pansexual.
-Late 30s, looks younger.

#introduction

Positive toots today:

Wow, this RPG looks /really/ cool. Bits of Stranger Things, bits of Night Vale, bits of other 1980s weirdness. Kids investigating mysteries adults are blind to.

This review series in particular got me pretty excited!
https://mephitjamesblog.wordpress.com/2017/03/14/tales-from-the-loop-review-part-1/
https://mephitjamesblog.wordpress.com/2017/03/28/tales-from-the-loop-review-part-2/
https://mephitjamesblog.wordpress.com/2017/04/13/tales-from-the-loop-review-part-3/

(First bit via a reply to another thread that came out well enough to post on its own.)

(Second bit is a panel from Doktor Sleepless, words by Warren Ellis and art by Ivan Rodriguez.)

Or, in short... https://awoo.space/media/XQ94fSguSW2Rezyl4xQ

To me the most important part about my identity is that I Am My Own Creation.

I'm a mad scientist who became their own experiment. I am an AI that self-generated. I am a phoenix that decided to change with every iteration and take the burn into their own claws. I was born a deer and became a dragon and then became synthetic. I'm a human who hacks their endocrine system and gender.

Self-determinism, self-agency. I am all these things because I say I am, because I tell these stories. :-)

Hey, this is likely of interest to folks:
A non-binary creator and friend of mine has been slowly building a rich, complex, genderless alien society and culture over the last few years. It's very well thought-out, found here: http://sulmere.tumblr.com/

But where do you go from there? A tarot deck, of course! Including tons of details about the culture, and featuring some amazing art and symbolism.
Check it out here! https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/58157872/a-darisa-tarot-the-lomisht

Note: does not reflect my own gender experiences. Just a random filk that came to me in the shower.

🎵 "Down in the boondocks/
Down in the boondocks/
People call me "girl" 'cause that's the kind of world/
I was born in
I'm a boy, my pronouns "he"
But somehow I threaten
Masculinity?
Lord have mercy for a boy from down in the boondocks...."🎶

Before focus meds:
My attention is like trying to touch teflon--with enough pressure and effort, you can remain in one spot, but things slide around otherwise.

After focus meds (at least so far):
My attention is like touching velcro, with other velcro. Easy to attach, takes an effort to detach and relocate.

Not better, but different!

Despite being in a bit of a creative slump right now, I can still be really proud of some of my older accomplishments. Much of my creative output, off and on, has gone into my Weird Twitter account.

Here's some of the best of those, compiled together in an easier reading format!

https://storify.com/EMForestry