Fayne, The Unfluffed @faynefluff@awoo.space

Also waiting on a job offer letter after getting the call back saying they want to move forward, this is a weird anxiety I’m not used to.

Holy fuck my nipples and tits continue to be on fire lately. I know I swapped meds up for that effect but goddamn I didn’t realize it would be this much.

I made a shiny today!

KBD-67; Holy Panda switches; brass plate; soldered PCB. Weighs about 4 pounds; feels like a dream and sounds like the 80s~

Four hours of interviews later... I need a fucking drink.

Oh god I can literally feel my stomach squeezing itself down into a black hole sized knot.

Woop and cert get.

Now to just figure out what to push for next. Probably something with Linux so I can leverage all the stuff I’ve set up for a home lab, lawl.

Well even if the interview this week goes totally tits up I got a couple of professional certifications out of it, at least~

It’s hard sometimes.

I’ve been wound up tighter than a spring and stressed out because of job stuff. I don’t feel like I’m going anywhere and I’m stagnant, typical complaints.

But just... in the grand scheme of things it’s nothing. I’ve got people around me who suddenly lost their ability to walk. People who wind up in the hospital for things outside of their control. People who can’t work because of things outside of their control.

And against all that, my complaints of being bored and stressed and unfulfilled are... what? It’s so hard to reconcile my relatively mundane and simple problems with the much bigger ones all around me. And get those problems don’t leave me any less worn out, any less tense and wound up and unable to sleep.

It’s just... hard to put it all together sometimes, meh.

study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study

So I mixed my HRT dosages and delivery method up a little and suddenly.... holy shit is this what a libido feels like?

...really want someone suckling on my nipples right now tbh.

Someone threatening to suckle my nipples has left me all warm and tingly.

Is this fabled... libido? The mythical sex drive? It’s a creature that I have not seen in years...

Hmmm. Maybe I can take country lesbian to the next level and start wearing flannel dresses...

Fucking ~hell~ I feel so stupid compared to a lot of the people around me sometimes. It’s frustrating.

Trying to learn how to self-braid my hair.

...it’s surprisingly difficult. I want to turn my over-the-shoulder ponytail into an over-the-shoulder braid tho, mmm.

Huh. In ‘TIL nerdy gay things’, apparently one of Pathfinder’s Iconic characters is a trans dwarf girl:

‘It is a sorry lot for a proud dwarven daughter to be raised a miserable dwarven son, but everyone receives one lot in life, and Shardra Geltl never knew to expect better.’

TIL that I could potentially commission Fayne keycaps. Would be hellaciously expensive but hmmmmmmm...

I might learn how to braid my hair, hmmm...

One day I will discover a style other than plaid and jeans and ponytail.

One day maybe, lol.

((Fuck allergy season, also))

Oh my god my sneezing fits are so bad right now it’s literally making everything cramp and hurt save me plz.