green except too damn hot @green@awoo.space

so now the question is, just decide that I'm awake now and get caffeine? or try going back to sleep? I'd prefer the latter, buuuuut

ah, the downside of having had too much caffeine tooooodyesterday... hellooooo insomnia

okay that's it goodnight awoo dream well

Spouse: *poking me*
me: *makes a series of increasingly strange noises*
Spouse: ... what the fuck.
me: I'm a broken Pokemon! .... a Brokemon!
me: *collapses in helpless laughter*
Spouse: ????
me: I HAVE HAD A LOT MORE CAFFEINE THAN I AM USED TO TODAY
Spouse: yeah, that explains a lot.

*puts in headphones and goes off to listen to http://www.idontevenownatelevision.com*

yes, keep fighting. yes, be worried. yes, keep working towards the future. but also remember you are connected to us, to all of us. and humans have *never had this before*. remember to take care of yourself. every thread of this beautiful, emerging tapestry is important. trust the strength of the weave to hold you when you need to rest.

we are the equivalents of medieval peasants trying to understand the world after the industrial revolution. it will not look like anything most people have seen or even imagined before. I don't know for sure what it will look like. but I believe that if humanity doesn't go extinct or have a drastic civilization collapse in the next couple of decades (and I *really* don't believe we will), it will emerge a big step closer towards adulthood as a species.

the change is going to be slow, and like all major changes, it's not going to be easy. but *it is happening now*. I personally believe that the authoritarianism and racism we're seeing is a terrified backlash to that change, and that it is destined to fizzle out, for a variety of reasons I could explain at length over coffee or something but I'm just gonna handwave here for now.

as much as the thinkpieces may say "we can't know what will happen, this is unprecedented in history," and then go on to predict stuff--there is one thing they seem to *constantly* ignore/downplay: the internet. and I am not fucking kidding. IT HAS CHANGED *EVERYTHING*, and is still changing things in ways we literally cannot imagine.

for better or worse--we are connected. you and me, and everybody who can read this. this is *truly unprecedented in history*.

I went to make myself some tea and looked down and thought "why is there a leaf on the sponge?" and then thought "why is there a very pretty moth that looks like a leaf on my sponge?" later, it disappeared in the bedroom somewhere. like it teleported away or something, I honestly do not know where it is now. I wish it good luck escaping the hungry hungry bored cats.

https://awoo.space/media/NcpdPtKb0TdMN_fiirs