s0rd @howlingalice@awoo.space
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
Nancy Drew, ....lewd?
playing Ghost Dogs of Moon Lake to take a break from Silent Spy and I'm dying I forgot this dude's name is Red Knott
Kinda wanna make a Nancy Drew blog or somethin now that I've gotten back into the games so hard. There's an active fanbase I never got to connect with when I was younger and only just learned about and it's so exciting :O Clue Crew
food
I didn't know it was possible to make meat this dry in a crockpot.
Medical BF's mom's cooking failures are absolutely astonishing tbh.
s0rd
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Hello nonhuman/otherkin/therian/alterhuman/other-term friends!
I care about you a lot! i want to help you feel as good as you can about this life, and help reduce species dysphoria where i can. I see you, and i know how painful it can be.
Someone inquired about different ways yo help aleviate Species Dysphoria, so i threw some on a pastebin for reference.
identity things, alterhumanity
I realize that I've always kept the alterhuman communities at some sort of arm's length away from the truly personal stuff. The things I'm loud n proud about rarely touch the deeper parts of myself, and the more they do, the more anxious I feel about it.
I feel like there's a very specific and shallow image of myself that I've projected to these communities for a long time, and breaking with that in being honestly personal is difficult for me.
identity things, alterhumanity
The more I open up and talk about the parts of my identity I'm still working out, or even just...open up about the personal side of my identities in general, the more vulnerable I feel. The more I want to take it all back, apologize, "sorry, this was silly, I'll just go hide these things again."
I worry how I sound to others, what others are thinking about me when I tell them the things I keep close to my chest in words I worry don't convey well what I feel.
taking painstaking notes I'm not even 100% sure I'll need #JustPointNClickMysteryThings :V
a cute girl complimented my boots today while i was out and im gay
i might actually try disabling notifs on my toots now :o because Ive definitely not posted things and generally gotten anxious about how other people perceive me here n think of me and what i post, as well as just. feeling like I gotta produce Content instead of just being able to write whatever
which I funnily enough never had a problem with on Birdsite but that's probably bc Birdsite doesn't have such a small community feel. everything felt a lot more anon there.
im full of bad jokes lately and Medical Boyfriend has literally escorted me outside because i wont stop
'big jug hot cheese' is the new household meme
dreams, half-woo
can't tell whether the dream I just had was 'bad's or not. people kept getting... idk that they were killed? just stopped being there in a way that made us sad,
but I got warm fuzzies and felt really connected to whoever was there with me and I'm sad I don't know his name and I hope he's okay without me now because I don't suspect I'll fall back asleep to the same dream. :(
ableism in occult spaces
every time I see some variation of "mentally ill people cant/shouldnt do magick because they're not 'mentally clear' or they're 'not in control of their mental state/emotions'" my mentally ill ass ascends to a higher plane of existence, goodbye
s0rd
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don't forget to be your favorite animal today
nightmares; unreality
wow i just woke up from an awful, horrific string of really gorey, fucked up nightmares and im still not 100% on feeling like i've woken up yet because it was like a horror anthology connected by the same relentless evil so how can i even trust 100% if im awake if everything was episodic and the end of one thing was the beginning of a new one?? like, being aware of it doesn't help me for some reason
can someone reassure me Im awake? im really scared, still
whoa wtf I just learned Hiveswap came out like last month and I never heard about it? Im *surrounded* by Homestucks, how did this literally never come up?
STD stigma/serophobia; frustrations with the ace communities
obligatory disclaimer:
there's such toxic polarized discourse about all this so i'll make it clear ive got problems with the communities and behaviors i see, not ace people as a whole.
i just really need to talk about how frustrated i am sometimes because the ace communities completely failed me when I tried being part of them.
STD stigma/serophobia; frustrations with the ace communities
Every time I hear "I like being ace because it means I can't get STDs/HIV!" I die a little more inside
there's so many reasons i stopped calling myself ace and left those communities and that's a big one.
Gender:
of the Day
hrt injection talk
I've had this dang T pellet in my belly since I injected last week bc I just didn't wiggle it around enough and now Im trying to massage it out but when I do its so itchyyyyyyy
(for anyone who doesnt know, you gotta rub T in once it's injected or it kinda clumps together in one spot and makes a little pellet and its not harmful really but its weird and uncomfy)
- pronouns today:
- they/them i guess
The Flock⛦23⛦pronouns vary⛦dnfi under 18
a mess of blackbirds in a trenchcoat all trying to be the same person and variably succeeding.
Joined Oct 2017
