Indi Latrani @indi@awoo.space

Sorry I've been so quiet lately! Seems like for the past month or so I've been either really busy with home stuff, or swamped by work.

Fortuantely it's been pretty good stuff in the main, just time-consuming!

And now I have a few weeks more left of it to go at least, with trips on both the first two weekends of May.

When did my life get this hectic, and how is it that I actually kinda enjoy it now? O.o

This is a recreation of the scene I have the strongest memory of from when I played around with POVRay in high school, probably because it's the first one that I just made up myself. And I was really proud of discovering the cool point-of-light effect you get by putting a light source inside an object.

Yeah, I guess I was obsessed with glow even back then. ;)

Hello World

#POVRay

I'm simultaneously sad and relieved that I don't have any of my old renders to share, here.

You all should be just relieved, probably.

Wait. I could probably recreate some of them. ^.^

POV-Ray was such a big part of my high school "getting way into Computers" memories.

I reading about Phong shading (uuuh because of ReBoot of course) and I saw this and it sent me into this deep reverie of twiddling shading parameters in a text editor.

(Ref: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phong_shading)

I'm weirdly glad that the POV-Ray website still looks like this:

http://povray.org

Whoops, article link:

https://medium.com/@ThingMaker/the-mtg-color-wheel-c9700a7cf36d

Did not expect a personality-typology article about the MtG color wheel would make me cry, but here we are:

This is everything I want to be, and it helps me see how to get there and yet how far off it still is.

Wellp, I can no longer say that no one at work has commented on my collar. After just over 5 years, that streak is broken.

Upside: It came up because a very cool coworker who also turns out to be poly and kinky mentioned a leatherworking class I might be interested in. XD

@literorrery Hey wanna help me make up a new identity label word? ;)

So, just realized that at some point in the past year, my first-line response to someone saying "hey I had a deity contact" went from "oh wow cool let's hear about it!" to "Ooh, okay, are you feeling all right, do you need any grounding or anything?"

Comes with experience, I guess. ;)

So @vagabondsun wrote some stuff and it make me want to write some stuff and all of a sudden I had my first Dreamwidth post in three years!

https://indicoyote.dreamwidth.org/5377.html

I call myself 'otherkin' a lot, because it feels like a broad term, easily encompassing experiences of being multispecies and synthetic and such. And yet, 'therian' is still a term that resonates for me, and one I still use in some contexts. Here's a stab at explaining why.

We are so diverse, but hopefully y'all here know that already. There was a long time that I was really frustrated and lonely about this stuff, feeling like I was the only one doing what I'm doing, but lately that's changed a lot. It does my plush heart a world of good seeing all the other folks working out gender in their own ways. You all are awesome.

💜🌊🌟

Getting rid of testosterone, facial hair, etc, helped immensely with my dysphoria about masculinization. That, plus a lot of thought and experimentation, allowed me to find a gender expression that felt comfortable and simply correct for me.

That all couldn't have happened without my local trans community and the broader movement. Even if my expression didn't shift from one end of a binary to another, it was still a gender transition, and it's important that cases like this be visible.

FWIW, here is that story: I'm AMAB, and have been dysphoric about a lot of traditional male traits for as long as I can remember. For years I was stuck because 'to female' was the only available transition path.

Eventually more became available, and I gave non-binary transition a shot. For me, that actually meant many of the same medical steps as a transfeminine transition, but without the associated social transitions. This was not out of fear, or an unwelcoming environment.

I'm often so-so about proclaming myself as trans; that word in combination with my queer+masc presentation can sorta give the wrong idea about my story. Today, though, I'm here to remind folks that trans includes many different paths and approaches, and they're all valid. #TransDayOfVisibility