The Technicolor Out Of Space @neonNeptunian@awoo.space
I'm only as real as I need to be. Are you hallucinating? //Memetic superweapon, playa-stained transdimensional emissary. Queer alien otter boy. [he/they] (NSFW)
Joined Apr 2017
tmi re: weird that i find hot
tbh, just heck up my semantic structure worse than trying to translate Orz to english tbh
(fun fact: p sure somewhere along the way we got the wires in my head for 'sense of cosmic awe/wonder' and 'oh frick that's really hot' got twist-tied together like woah)
ideas i find hot currently (nsfw, tf/mc/weird)
it's kind of the effort from beginner to mastery, i guess?
the initiation that leaves one Changed, the sculpting and training and twisting of self, to mastery, embodiment of the Other
...idk where im going with this just, happy thoughts
purrrble. *six-eyed grin*
ideas i find hot currently (nsfw, tf/mc/weird)
Creeping distortions/corruptions of reality- transformations not of just the self but of the environs around them
extradimensional distortions seeping into this reality
words glitching into nonsense, into glossolalia,
thoughts being encrypted by static from their thinkers, superceded by outside sources
being lovingly sculpted/molded/warped into a carrier, a vector, an evangel
something Stranger, something Better springing in thy wake
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@neonNeptunian Yay yay yay! Ellus should get nice things too!
I still dig Portico Quartet for neat hang drum stuffs https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0RciGGGdaQ
Sooo, I think i'm going to get that.
A second windfall happened yesterday from grandparents, and with a previous kindness, i...actually have enough to afford such.
...it's hard to tell myself that 'it is okay to get myself a Nice Thing', instead of just saving and focusing on survival.
But i'm gonna get one. n..n;
I've wanted one of those for years.
...however, they are...prohibitively expensive, to say the least. Like, as much as a fursuit.
HOWEVER. doing some research, i found a different kind of handpan that's like a third of that price, and just...well, it sounds just as pretty to me. u3u
(instead of the hang, which is hammered into shape from the inside-out, this has steel tongues cut to resonate at a certain tone. Similar, but different?)
in the quest of Doing Nice Things for Ellu:
i recalled late last night about the Hang drum. It's a kind of instrument in a category called 'handpans', it's a mix between a steel drum and a UFO lookin' thing, that makes beautiful music:
(oh, yes, that's it, it was one of my favorite Shpongle tracks that did it.)
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[BOON TOWARDS HAPPINESS]
🔫 ♍️ ‼️
Hey, awoo'ers. G'morning.
I know i've been kind of a mess these past couple days, but I think i'm through the nadir. i'mma be doing my best to try that whole...self-care thing. It's...not easy for me. But I promise i'll try.
You should find reason to care and love for yourself today, okay?
Because you're absolutely worth it, too. We all are.
Hug. 💜
...oh i *did* pack my poi
i could Finally Get Competent at That
thats a good something to work on.
@vahnj For what it's worth, I think you're doing a good job out here. thanks for all the work you're doin'.
Hugs available on tap. 💜
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PSA to folks who're afraid of reaching out to a friend because you think they're too busy with their life and might think you're a nuisance for bothering them
You're not alone, and the person you're convinced is too popular and cool to want to spend time with you might very well be assuming the same of you.
Source: I got to know most of my best friends only after overcoming this hurdle of mutually assumed disinterest.
May today grant you kindness, comfort, joy,
and cessation of undue suffering.
You, by right of possessing life and sentience, deserve all these.
💜
i hope you dream of wonders this evening.
i hope that dream grants you solace and joy and wonder
and all the kindnesses you are owed
and all the love i promise you are worthy of.
cw adjustment: previous three awoos to
'hurt, fear over future, venting, severe headsads'
dont read that
You are okay. You deserve to be okay.
Your self-care is okay.
I hope you can find cause for happiness, today.
💜
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Also finally resolved in my own head that mastodon isn't about avoiding politics. CWs aren't about avoiding politics.
Taking care with content is about managing risk to others so that the effort to repair a damaged world doesn't deteriorate into panic, aggression or despair.
CWs seem like a small good step towards respecting that the state of global politics affects us deeply. It's not a sideshow.
(please do not replicate the otter, there are some very not good personality glitches in there that would be preferred not to be seen in others.
we are aware of these, and are working on rectifying them. Thank you for your care and your time.
-mgmt)
I'm sorry i haven't been able to help.
i see your hurt. all of you.
i'm sorry i can't do much to staunch it.
i'm sorry i can't even help myself, right now.
i'm just sorry.
i should be quiet more.
updates, sad thoughts
So the medication brother started is the actual chemotherapy meds.
It's a 30-day dose. After that, I guess they'll decide from there if he needs more or to move ahead with transplant.
I'm here until then.
I give up on BM. and the eclipse. They're clearly not happening.
friends and family've said 'focus on getting there next year', and i just can't.
i can't plan because as far as i can tell next year will be worse. either i won't have money or time or both. likely both.
I'm only as real as I need to be. Are you hallucinating? //Memetic superweapon, playa-stained transdimensional emissary. Queer alien otter boy. [he/they] (NSFW)
Joined Apr 2017
