updates, sad thoughts
So the medication brother started is the actual chemotherapy meds.
It's a 30-day dose. After that, I guess they'll decide from there if he needs more or to move ahead with transplant.
I'm here until then.
I give up on BM. and the eclipse. They're clearly not happening.
friends and family've said 'focus on getting there next year', and i just can't.
i can't plan because as far as i can tell next year will be worse. either i won't have money or time or both. likely both.
@neonNeptunian Don't ever feel like you have to be quiet. Even when you're sad, just knowing you're there cheers me up. And it inspires me to get myself back together as fast as possible, so I can start being of some help again. We're all gonna get through this stuff together if it's at all possible. *hug*
@neonNeptunian sometimes we all need help. it's okay, hon. *gentle hugs offered*
@neonNeptunian You are beautiful and wonderful, and your mere presence is a help to many, dear one.
Please, don't be afraid to vent. You are allowed to feel, just like any of us are. ♥️
@neonNeptunian Don't you dare. We're here for you and you're here for us. No matter how little you feel like you've been able to help, you _do_ help.
And I'm so sorry for all that you're having to endure. I wish I could do more for you.
@neonNeptunian You are allowed to speak your pain. You are allowed to give voice to the feelings inside you. You are allowed to _have_ feelings. You are allowed to be a person. You are allowed to ask for help, to need others, and to be treated well. You are allowed to be a person if you wish, and not a people when it's appropriate. You are allowed to seek comfort and safety. You are allowed to be.
You are allowed.
We like you. We miss you. We will be here. We won't let you fall.
updates, sad thoughts
@neonNeptunian Isn't it a 3 week prep time still? From that 30 days?
updates, sad thoughts
@Doephin At least, yes. Possibly longer, depending on if they see him as 'ready' after that 30 days or say he needs more treatment.
That's why i'm calling it quits on Burning Man andor eclipse-watching plans now; they clearly aren't happening, no matter how badly I hope otherwise.
@neonNeptunian @Doephin What I do don't understand, I guess, is why you couldn't fly home in the interim waiting time, and fly back once you have a date. You'd be waiting, but not stuck for a whole month in a situation you don't want to be in.
Aside from the plane ticket costs, at least.
I'm sorry i haven't been able to help.
i see your hurt. all of you.
i'm sorry i can't do much to staunch it.
i'm sorry i can't even help myself, right now.
i'm just sorry.
i should be quiet more.