Pastelbat @pastelbat@awoo.space

good morning fediverse

Was reminded of this interview recently, it's been on my mind a bit ever since, how deeply it's permeated my sense of self and how hard I've had to work to shed it.

Also how easy it is to slip back into that mindset, and how many aspects of society encourage and reinforce it.

(CWs: child sexual trauma, PTSD, ablism)

https://www.uvm.edu/sites/default/files/Center-on-Disability-and-Community-Inclusion/GiangrecoPDERS961421-12.pdf

Excerpt below:

"The implicit message that permeated all my therapy experiences was that if I wanted to live as a valued person, wanted a quality life, to have a good job, everything could be mine. All I had to do was overcome my disability. No one comes up and says, ‘Look, in order to live a good life you have to be normal,’ but it’s a powerful, implicit message."

(...)

"Well I wanted all those things, to have a good life – so I ended up declaring war on my own body. It was me against my disability; and my disability was my enemy. I was bound and determined that I was going to conquer that disability."

Being disabled and being trans means being indoctrinated on two fronts into a specific kind of obsessive institutional idolatry, devoted to a specific ideal of the valid body and its place in society.

In general terms, it goes something like this;

"You will never be us for as long as you live. It is nontheless important that you devote yourself to emulating us in minute detail. It is only by constant study, practice and self-flagellation for this role that you will be accepted."

In both cases, the cultural needs of the 'normal' group (invisibility, worship, subservience) are inverted; They are invariably presented as a core need of the target group, instead.

The act of ingraining this ideology on the target group is therefore depicted not only as harmless, but as essential for the subject's survival- Their erasure is a noble responsibility, taken up on their behalf by benevolent custodians.

Hum. Well, it's not the PSU.

I'm going to scratch that time/effort down to learning more about computer maintenance.

Next is motherboard stuff, but not today. Today is resting.

Boy I sure love the distinction of developmental disorders

How shall we define Autism? If we accept the clinical framework (which we shouldn't, but hey), should we go by symptoms, genetic clusters, or mayb-

DSM/ICD: "Put the stuff involving interactions with neurotypical people in the 'Important Diagnostic Criteria' Box, put everything else in the 'Probably Happens Too, But Who Cares' Box. Job done, lol."

think I'm just going to spend all of today hiding from awfulness in Monster Train

or sleeping but that seems far less likely tbh

tfw you wanna devour souls but you don't wanna get out of bed #miniatures

Really wishing we hadn't as a culture decided to just smush every forum topic into one mushy blend, then spent the next decade inventing worse ways to differentiate posts by topic again without breaking the Infinite Scrolly Page archetype

*pokes brain*

Awaken

*pokes again*

I demand it

tbf Black Rats are "Rattus Rattus", so "Piscene Lobe-Finned Fish" is an entirely reasonable clade

Fanged Lobe-Finned Fish
Flying Lobe-Finned Fish
Brute Lobe-Finned Fish
Bird Lobe-Finned Fish
Piscene Lobe-Finned Fish (..?!)
Elder Dragon

"It's so silly that the scholars in Monster Hunter classify almost everything you run into a subtype of Wyvern."
"Every irl land vertebrate is a subtype of Lobe-Finned Fish, though."
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I think my brain's been on a "the concept of 'nature' is hella weird" kick lately more than usual because of playing the Monster Hunter World expansion a lot

which is like, the worst possible example for this kinda discourse but apparently my brain will take anything as a jump-off point to waffle about cultural narratives or sth

People should experience sitting on public transport in a manual wheelchair for a few hours before yelling 'ban cars'

You don't even get a decent parking brake, let alone brakes proper, so get a railing in a nice cozy deathgrip for the next few hours

"How far back does the 'Tuff man does badcrimes, to protect society from badder tuffmans, doing badder badcrimes!!' trope go?"

"It resurged post 9/11, but 80-90s media was full of it already. The 70s also had its versions, and going back further.. The Noir Detective genre of the 1920s.. Do I know any examples before the 1920s..?"

🧠​: "Thomas Hobbes, 'The Leviathan', 1651."

"Damn. I mean.. You're not wrong."

Many schools of thought hold up a set of criteria and say that parts of the self that are the self are those parts that fit the criteria. Other phenomena observed inside the entity are not the entity.

The categorisation of the negative image is also the categorisation of the positive image

The transmission of an external system of categorisation, and thus personhood, via the message that the entity has already ingested another system of external categorisation that is producing perceptual bias