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@Leucrotta what a huge pain! That’s a terrible system

@Leucrotta talk about all of it! That’s what this is for I think

@Leucrotta thank you, but sometimes just talking about it a little is enough to make me feel better :)

@literorrery What’s your Telegram? I’m smallesttiger :-)

@literorrery I appreciate that buni :-) I think it would help me to talk about it sometime

@mawr Thank you for the hugs :-) most of my family is really wonderful, he’s just a bad guy

This is probably also because @Fuego is away right now and since I am pretty much incapable of letting myself be sad when any other person is nearby, I tend to store it up so I can be mournful the whole time she’s gone.

About a month ago my dad cut all contact with me. I went through a phase of being upset and sad, then resigned, then I had a really hard few weeks because I couldn’t stop remembering all of the reasons that he was a terrible person.

Today I’m feeling melancholy because I listened to a song that reminded me of him in a roundabout way and now I’m thinking about all of the positive memories I do actually have.

@Litchi @Tanuki That must be the same tour we are going to up here!

@Tanuki ニャアアアア

(they are cranky that they have finished eating and not yet been released, because the old cat who has to eat alone isn’t done yet.)

You know what makes reading difficult text in Japanese easier? Nonstop background cats meowing!

at some point the New Englander strategy of just being able to dealing with a feeling quietly seems really valid to me. Do we have to process everything out loud together? Sometimes we all just need to grow up and accept minor discomfort.

Also I am feeling so so so burned out about queer interpersonal politics, hearing that Person A doesn’t like Person B because Person B made an offhanded remark about not wanting to play with Person A one on one and now Person A is feeling hurt and weird and needs to talk to them about it….

I mean, I have open blocks of two hours but they don’t like feeling “sandwiched between my time with other people.” Currently riding a line between being understanding and flexible and learning how to tell someone that their stuff is their own stuff.

Going solo to a play party this weekend so I could relax and have fun and not have to manage other people’s emotions and possessiveness, but the friend I am staying with had a death in the family and is delicate and started crying on the phone because we wouldn’t have much time together between my dates with other people. Unpaid emotional labor never turns off.

@Fuego why would you do that

@Litchi I just randomly found this while looking up costume references: https://www.thehairpin.com/2014/04/a-campy-pirouette-and-a-scissor-leap-an-appreciation-of-jesus-christ-superstar/

#introduction hello! I've been here a little while but don't post much. I'm trying to do more/meet more people. Queer poly kinky trans guy, professional dog trainer and formerly aeronautical engineer. Furry and pagan to varying degrees. I read lots of fantasy and sf and study Japanese and love food and work out and I'm trying to learn to play MtG well.
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Trying to be really good and not spend any money ever, but I found cash in my pocket and everything is awful so I'm getting a GF donut. ✨🍩✨