video games, conditioning
maybe this came from never being able to play games against other Real People when i was younger?
maybe streaming could be a way to practice fortifying myself against self-conditioning?
video games, conditioning
i wonder where i would be if i could find a way past the effects of conditioning?
i should really look into ways to get over that, because it seems i'm significantly better than what my mind is letting me be. hmm...
BEAVER BOTHER DOWN!
i'm not sure why, but sometimes i kinda just feel ambient excitement stemming from seemingly nowhere??
i also do this thing when i'm excited where i cover my face with my hands, and then kinda strum my cheeks and nose with my fingers
i stop myself in public, because to a casual observer this must look crazy--especially when nothing particularly exciting is going on ahahah
after trying to get used to clip studio paint, i have to say, oh gosh how i miss sai's vectoring
you can tweak it and clean it up so easily, and you never actually have to erase lines, so if you want to tweak it again, you can just remove some of the mask from your best lines instead of having to redraw them
i'm drawing this because i'm thinking of streaming beat saber soon, and i think it would be cool to have art for that!
oh hi! i do computers, and sometimes draw stuff~ i like lo-fi things and cute aesthetics!
i also probably like you
(also, tagged #abdl ahead, soooo 🔞)