Crinklewott 💕 @thingywott@awoo.space

i literally have an empty discord room where i post things because my silly brain is not convinced that anyone who doesn't join would even really care

but i also want to write such unique bots for it that it might eventually attract others...somehow?

stopping to think about any of this stuff really shows how little sense it makes

i'm so happy i can make things i like, but i seem to be falling into the trap of not wanting to show others again in fear of imposing, aaaaaaaaa

i guess at least it's not major enough that i don't even want to post it though

it's always fun when someone likes me on okcupid, sends me a message, and then blocks me

i have a section on my profile where i mention my whole abdl thing, because i'd prefer weird people out early rather than after they get emotionally invested in me (because i think that would be really mean!)

i know it's something that some peeps will probably never be okay with, and if i didn't filter them out from the get-go, things could get really hard

maybe this came from never being able to play games against other Real People when i was younger?

maybe streaming could be a way to practice fortifying myself against self-conditioning?

i wonder where i would be if i could find a way past the effects of conditioning?

i should really look into ways to get over that, because it seems i'm significantly better than what my mind is letting me be. hmm...

it's interesting how i do better at beat saber when buzzed

i mean, my reaction times are very obviously worse, but my achilles heel of conditioning myself negatively is decidedly absent

is the effect of my overthinking my mistakes in games really that potent??

huh. i've just discovered a coffee shop that's still playing christmas music

chelsea manning is a treasure

BEAVER BOTHER DOWN!

#ThanksGraham

i'm not sure why, but sometimes i kinda just feel ambient excitement stemming from seemingly nowhere??

i also do this thing when i'm excited where i cover my face with my hands, and then kinda strum my cheeks and nose with my fingers

i stop myself in public, because to a casual observer this must look crazy--especially when nothing particularly exciting is going on ahahah

*marth grabs someone on the tv next to him*

this turned out to be a pretty illuminating new point of reference

my favorite thing: the opposite of whatever sticking your hair in your soup is

these teeth are augmented

jc dentist

it's not even 9:00 and today's already going pretty good..!

i wish i knew what randomly gave me energy in the morning, because most times when i wake up i definitely don't have that