Crinklewott 💕 @thingywott@awoo.space

pictured: how i interact with birdsite

it's pokemon day in japan!

it's great because that means there's a lot of extremely good art being posted that basically guarantees this will be a good day for me, hee~

maybe what i need is more practice being out there?

practice communicating, and practice with negative reactions--because i'm inevitably going to run into a lot of them in the future when i try to make things to help my friends

maybe i think i need to behave "extra good" on the internet because i'm abdl?

and that, by being one, it makes me much more likely to be misinterpreted for reasons of malice down the line to hurt my friends and me for simply existing?

it's weird to not know the things you've internalized subconsciously; but if that's the case, it would make sense why i never let my guard down, even in super-casual and low-risk situations

but why to this *extent*? i don't get it

maybe its my general suspicion of irony and poe's law?

the idea that i have no say in the general perception of my meanings, even if I know exactly what they were and others don't is intimidating

but not *that* intimidating, is it? why does it get to me so much?

do i really hate the idea that much of people coming to me years down the line to tell me that "actually, it's pronounced gif" or whatever?

9 times out of 10, my deletions are jokes that i'm not 100% sure 100% of people will interpret as one

it bothers me a *lot* when i can't get my meaning across, literal or not, and even the slight risk of it happening with a joke makes me feel like it's not worth it a lot of the time

but why do i only worry about that specifically online there? i tell plenty of extremely bad jokes irl

you can learn a lot about me by my self-deletion habits on twitter; a place where i was extremely performative initially, and still feel pressure to be for some reason

something i'm starting to notice more and more is how most of the really popular people i know about seem to be both extremely stubborn and also have a pretty aggressive snark game

i wonder if its related?

i sketched a bunny who just CAN'T BELIEVE i didn't post them here

i think it would be really cool to finally be able to articulate myself outside of small chats

hee, it's such a tease. i'll get there though..!

i honestly think i need to start keeping point form notes for myself, *of* myself

is it weird to have a trillion writing ideas swimming around your head, but also having them all evaporate the second you actually sit down in front of a screen?

it's weird how i almost never get frustrated with things i'm trying

when faced with something that seems basically impossible initially, i just get progressively more and more excited the closer i get to doing it

oh yeah! i guess i should mention this is for wsl_proxy!

it's a thing i'm making that lets you use wsl command line tools as if they were windows programs

always happy to come across another situation that's "not such a big deal because it's simply a contrived problem which you'll likely never encounter."

(from https://superuser.com/a/962805/149426)

it's unfortunate that i'm relying on base64 existing in any wsl that this is used in, but i guess i'm already relying on bash as it is anyway, soooo....

i did figure out a way to do it though! and that way is very bad, hee

i base64 the whole command line, and run it in a subshell, because that doesn't require any double-quotes or escaping magic cmd-side

i even wrote a C# program to use its built-in argument parsing, so *it* could figure out passing that as a single argument to wsl bash

it couldn't do it either

TIL escaping things for cmd.exe is sometimes impossible

like, if you have a file:

C:\folder with spaces (And parens)\fancy!!! chars'`@;,[]{}().txt

the only way to get that escaped as a subshell in bash is like:

cat "$(wslpath $'C:\\folder with spaces (And parens)\\fancy!!! chars\'`@;,[]{}().txt')"

and i'm trying to write something that will throw this into bash.exe -ic, but how the heck do you escape it?

backslashes won't do it, carets don't do it

looking it up, turns out you can't??