Crinklewott 💕 @thingywott@awoo.space

oh! also the game itself is playable online here if you were curious what it was! (you can also get the data files in the sidebar!)

since it was a DOS sidescroller, that means it didn't have access to particularly advanced video hardware, meaning that smooth scrolling was Very Hard

also music was only through a special synth card (from ad lib)

and every other sound used the PC speaker (the thing that makes your computer beep sometimes)

also, a lot of old game formats are excellent practice since they are so simple!

• maps and images are often basically just bitmaps, so you can just visualize it immediately by spitting out an rgb8 image of file bits
• custom archives often have headers that contain literal file seek locations with sizes
• other metadata is often just bitpacked into guessable partitions if you know anything about the game
• compression is pretty much absent in most cases

it's basically free

i should really make a git repo for all the times i randomly decide to make imhex understand the most obscure game formats imaginable

i didn't think i'd get the urge to do this more than once, but here we are!

i've never really been able to draw jirachi in a physical medium before, so i feel like this turned out pretty nicely..!

listening to asmr in japanese for auditory practice almost seems like cheating

(don't mind me editing tags into about a billion posts so that i can find them without digging again)

it's no exaggeration to say that being abdl is the source of a huge number of positive traits that i have now that make me who i am

ones that i wouldn't trade anything for~

and for all the interpersonal-kryptonite i worried it could become, it also has indirectly informed the way i interact with others to such an enormous degree that i feel has had the opposite effect; making me legitimately a better person

which makes me happy too!

compare that to now, where i legitimately feel lucky that i'm abdl!

• i have a pretty-much-unlimited well of passive happiness in a place i wouldn't normally because of it
• it acted like a shield towards the Not Great views surrounding me growing up--since i was squarely outside their toxic status quo
• it's a pretty dang good filter for removing people from my circles who would cause my other friends to quash their own quirks

but, also!

• it cute (imo)

i don't know what i expected

them: "so, you are saying you like to feel cute and be comfortable in platonic settings by wearing underwear you like?"
me: y-yes
them: "get out of here, that's too hardcore, man. friendship over"

i legit thought i would be ostracized

and while there are definitely people who can be icked out by this kind of thing (which is why i cw!) it's almost funny how distorted my perception was

there probably aren't many peeps who follow me that don't already know, but juuust in case, i may as well elaborate!

tl;dr - i'm abdl, which for me means i'm someone who thinks diapers are cute, and having them as a part of my self-image makes me happier overall~

combine this with being asexual, and essentially the vibes i like the most are just comfy and cozy ones!

and i mean, yeah! it is pretty unusual–but i definitely overestimated how much it ire it would draw

thinking about how much i worried about people learning that i liked something weird compared to the reactions i actually got when i confided in them

almost universally, the reactions i got were "wait, that's it??"

it's like they were disappointed it wasn't something wilder, and that i just spent so much emotional energy on the most innocent thing imaginable

also, places you can do this!

cities where magpies are the most common bird are lucky imo

masahiro sakurai has done a lot of pretty impossible things, but having an nearly-universally positive youtube comments section on his channel may be one of the most impressive

it's almost may
it's snowing outside
and that makes me happy

(i love snow~)