Crom, Kobold King @vahnj@awoo.space

is it just me or are lots of people suffering really bad this week?

sometimes i think about this Akimbo Comics strip on depression

http://www.akimbocomics.com/?p=573 https://awoo.space/media/_6Dpaf5npcnFaNZasrY

thanks for putting up with my rambling. i'm gonna go back to work.

i have to fight this every day knowing the friends i've lost to this damn thing. i have to live for them.

i have to fight this every day knowing brother never got the chance for this life.

i have to fight this every day for all the people out there who never got this chance. i gotta stand up and be somebody not because i want to- i don't at all. i want to hide in a cave forever.

i have to do it because i was lucky, and have the chance to fix that.

i am alive today. so many others are not. i live and admit my mental illness only when i am able to trust people. trust is in rare supply these days.

i have to fight through my days sometimes to get things done. i went from being underpaid for my position to being far overpaid. my job still stresses me out but they treat me well.

i feel trapped. i just got back from vacation and am already dying. this life is hell.

i am one of the lucky ones.

i suffer from a combination of a desire to die because i am tired of hurting and constantly seeing people i care about being hurt, and a desire to live because there is so much in life that gives me joy.

my parents had a child before me who died in his sleep. i was an accident. i have always felt i had one foot in death because of this. my parents weren't rich, but they were for the area they lived in.

i am one of the lucky ones.

i tried to come out to my dad once, before i knew i was fully gay. i came out as bi and he made me break up with my now husband over the phone. i cried the rest of the night. we secretly decided to stay together the next day.

once when they picked up me for christmas, i talked to my parents about politics. my dad voted for trump. so did my mom. i open cried in the car on the way home.

they accept my relationship now.

i am one of the lucky ones.

i struggle with depression and anxiety on a near daily basis. i practice a lot of mindfulness. and it still gets to me. i take 15mg of lexapro every morning.

i've avoided using mastodon a lot today publicly. i'm having a real hard time.

two years ago in november, i had a breakdown. My whole career I've spent supporting someone I care about who produced no income. I've had to balance a demanding job and a demanding home life.

i am lucky.

hey folks if you got a moment and are comfortable doing so join me in filling in some info to tell Starbucks not to sponsor a Betsy DeVos fundraiser - they can't court billionaires who are homophobic and transphobic and also claim to host a safe space for LGBT+ folks

http://act.fusewashington.org/letter/StarbucksDevosWPC2017/?source=FuseFacebook