@Balinares Peg started looking at financial stuff this morning and I'm having more and more trouble believing there's a future... *hug*

@zebratron2084 @Balinares oh hon, I know that feeling too damn well. there is definitely a future... though it may be hard or painful to see from here. much, much empathy and many hugthoughts.

@Balinares Honestly, nah, and when I look at the ACTUAL details we have so many advantages it's kind of laughable that I'm even stressed. Peg is just fretting over long-term moving plans and our general lack of household income, and... yeah, it's looking like the Slacker Era has been brought to a close in America. Which means, chronic fatigue or not, it's time to pick myself up and try to rejoin the full-time workforce again. ;__;

@Balinares But between that and the scary-fast collapse of any sense of a community network I had out here -- and Parallax not quite getting the buzz I was secretly hoping for -- it's easy to start fretting. Between a bunch of creeping health issues and my abject terror of the job-hunting process, I guess I'm just a little spooked today.

Why aren't there any decent jobs left in lounging, growling, eating raw steak, and looking majestic? Life's not fair. =;_;=

@Balinares Nope, they've done all they can, but this is strictly a part-time job, with an hours cap and no chance of health benefits currently. Working for them full-time would most likely require (a) a very specific position becoming vacant and (b) moving to Boston [or possibly Berkeley, I might still look into that].

@Balinares Admittedly, "ask boss if there's ANYTHING I can do to get a job at HERE.com, if I'm willing to move to Berkeley" is on the list of possibilities, but it's probably a pretty remote one!

Also, I have a long-term possible lead thanks to @acetone_kitten, but it would require (a) flagging them down for some training (b) a longer commitment to staying in Seattle than Peg would probably be comfortable with...

@Balinares And of course, so much of this would be easier if we could rely on Emperor Stubby Fingers not suddenly taking away my semblance of public healthcare... >_< One of Peg's proposals is moving to New Orleans, which does have distinct charms (good rent, trans-friendly, Peg has some friends there) but would put us right in the middle of a VERY conservative state.

@Balinares Also, just talking to you and @mawr a little bit has already left me feeling rather less doomed, so thank you both. <3 I think part of it is just letting myself get all isolated and weird again. :)

Peg and I have had a tendency to go into an "it's down to you and me vs. the world" mode a little bit lately, and it's easy to believe that when I'm stuck here in my own thoughts, you know?