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Meanwhile, I've been getting that awful feeling again, that I've pretty much drifted out of the lives of most of the locals, and it's basically my fault.
It is, really. I know I definitely withdrew good and hard after the fight with Keet and Orrery. I walked away from a lot of community spaces, like the Slack and the Eyrie rituals. And I don't really feel like there's a non-awkward way back into them.
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I guess I just wanted to say that if I've been talking like I'm Just Done With Seattle Folks... I guess it's more of a warding behavior than something I actually *want*. Like, it's a way of preparing myself for something I really fear is true.
I still like and miss all of you Seattle people. Cripes, I still like Orrery and Keet-- that's why I'm staying the fuck AWAY from them, because we obviously need a few years apart, at the very least, to cool things down.
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@zebratron2084 I do want to hang out if schedules line up. Kinda feel bad that I will hopefully get to Seattle about when y’all bail out.
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Face-to-face sometime soon, maybe before Thanksgiving, for Reasons?
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@Cerulean Yeah, that would be good. Reasons. *hug*
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@Cerulean Yikes, I had not realized how soon Thanksgiving is coming! How about shortly thereafter? :)
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@zebratron2084 yes most definitely! now that I am back from CO... but give me a little while to let my Social Meter come back down a bit, say next week? :D
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@troodon Mmmaybe week after? I'm looking at having to sneak in a bunch of healthcare appts on short notice 'cause of Insurance Clusterfuck, and my vestigial logistics brain is busy running around in circles going waaaaaaaugh currently. :)
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@zebratron2084 fair enough! I'll poke you sometime next week to see if you've got an idea of what might be a good time for you. and meantime, *bitebitegnaw* :D
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@troodon 🐯❤️❤️❤️
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It's busy times, so I don't know if I really *could* do a lot of socializing anyhow. But I admit, I do really miss the big-group stuff.
I've avoided the rituals partly to give K and O a little space, and partly 'cause... honestly, the Celtic ritual calendar has never really spoken to me? But I'm super-glad they're happening.
Anyhow, dunno. Been torn between being bolder & Sparing You The Burden Of My Stripey Boorishness? 🐯
But let's get sushi sometime, or something?