Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

@Leucrotta And the weirdest thing is the SURVIVOR'S GUILT. The snipers keep missing us and hitting people we care about, and there's no real REASON for it. Our fundamentals are pretty good. We're a lot less precarious than a lot of people right now. But I keep reacting badly to all these reminders that we live in a society with virtually NO safety net...

...and that I had a community in Seattle that might back me up if the shit hit the fan-- or at least felt like I did, and deluded myself I had done things important enough to deserve it.

Now it's really just me and Peg, with a little help now and then from my parents-- who are both over 70 now, are comfortable but not rich, and just add to the sense of precarity with their own health problems. We know a couple of people down here, but nothing like I had... thought I had... in Seattle.

Everything STILL roots right back in Transliminal and I'm coming to think that, even as much as I've recuperated, it always will. I came SO CLOSE to achieving my Plan A for surviving this hellworld, and it all just slipped away the moment the veil of illusion was jostled.

Haven't had much to say lately. Been scared, stressed, and mourning my old social life.

Worried about the cats almost every day, even when they're apparently healthy and happy, because I can't stop anticipating what MIGHT and probably will happen to them someday.

Doing pretty much the same thing with Peg, too.

@Austin_Dern Yikes. Best of luck, hun, and keep us posted. *hug*

some random youtube music critic described the velvet underground's genre as "proto-everything" and... yeah, that's about right

@JulieSqveakaroo That is severely enviable. Dare I hope there's purchase info for these?

@Leucrotta oooops, honestly, i'm gonna attribute that error to early-morning poor reading skills -- I'm gonna stand by it, though, that was a... a... a very Coen Brothers bunch of people in general. :) Not all necessarily bad, but definitely the ones I met were conservative leaning and... peculiar.

@Leucrotta My dad was safety director and later vice president of a trucking company, and I'm shocked, SHOCKED to hear you talking in such dismissive terms about truck drivers...

...because they're remarkably accurate and it makes me wonder when you spent so much time around them? :D

Granted, this was the 1980s and I've actually got friends who have driven trucks -- Rowan for one -- but my god, were the truckies I met through dad's business trips dumb, reactionary, and all-around sleazy.

It was like being introduced, five to ten years too young, to every Coen Brothers story just waiting to happen. :p

sometimes you just need one of these now and then

Saw Snowshoe today! Their new Food Guy was out on the porch and called us over to visit!

Apparently, yeah, he is a MUCH better Cat Whisperer than I am, 'cause he actually managed to train Snowy to stay inside. Or possibly Snowy is just a big scaredybutt. They looked great, though, growing so fast.

We also got to meet their new neighbor Smoky, who is apparently jealous as hell of them but was still happy to accept some petting.

Also, just before we arrived, I saw a small black blur dart under a nearby car -- I think Sugarfoot might have gotten a glimpse of her kid. She declined to comment. Empress Shadow, however, upon being informed that we saw her grandkittens and they are well, commented "Mew" and lowered her royal head for a scritch.

@xinjinmeng This all reminds me of a very pleasant dream I had years ago, about a far-leftist butch ratgirl sentai team with the code names Anthrax, Brucella, Cholera, Dengue, and Ebola.

I miss them.

@zx3 So, when I was a preteen, before my fundie phase, I channel-flipped into an episode of the Trinity Broadcast Network's flagship Fake Christian talk show.

Every year they would go through a bunch of that year's childrens toys and cartoons and tell us Why Each One Is Satanic. And after finding traces of demonic influence (usually any trace of magic whatsoever) in Care Bears, Rainbow Brite, and so forth... they answered a letter from a parent who was concerned about Popples -- which they could not think of a single possible way could corrupt children.

Cut to 1993. I have just discovered my first Internet mailing list for plushophiles...

Do I really even need to finish telling this story? Formative experience. For like, 90% of the subscribers.

@zx3 I don't know, but I have a terrible story about Popples. Wanna hear it? >:D

Gave a coworker her first 5/5 on an evaluation. That always makes me feel so good. I have been working so fucking hard to actually be constructive with all the advice I give them.

You would still not believe how much nicer of a person I am to my coworkers than I am to the Internet. You folks are really getting the shit end of me and I apologize. 😜​

@Oneironott Good point. And that's exactly why I'm gonna go back and tough this out and probably go on to Season Two...

@Leucrotta I am probably not a great standard for this because my hair has always grown in infuriatingly fast! Although come to think of it, I shaved recently and then restarted growing it out of laziness and it's been around... 11 days. Hmm. Yeah, even for me that's a bit premature to tell how it's going to look? There is definitely truth that old "sine wave of facial hair attractiveness" meme so I might give it a little more time to mature?

@Oneironott Oh lordy lou, she's gonna go full Batman Logic and actually feel GUILTY in the coming seasons about snuffing that POS, isn't she. -___-

Haha, yeah, that was totally satisfying. I can do the rest of the series now. Die, motherfucker, die. :D

Yikes. Well.

I got further through the first episode of Jessica Jones than I did last time, long enough to know that I won't be able to go any further without (a) being consumed by murderous rage towards Kilgrave (b) permanently losing several of my kinks.

So instead I'm indulging in a lengthy stoned fantasy about Kincaid the GURPS Tech Level 14 lavavixen torturing Kilgrave in ways that would make Harlan Ellison's worst creations gasp.

It's a pity, 'cause I actually was quite enjoying the show. And yeah, I already know how S1 ends and it's the only reason I can even CONSIDER continuing.

In fact, yeah, I'm just gonna skip straight to that episode and maybe circle back. *evil cackle*

Anyhow. Whoo. It's good for someone with my kinks to be reminded they have VERY clearly defined ethical boundaries to what they can take pleasure in.

sweet rosalie working at the five and dime
train back to hackensack
with rosemary wine
doo do da doo da doo
cocaine (snort)
we both like to do cocaine