mood (++++-)
Still twitchy and raw from another painful exchange regarding The Thing That Did Not Go As Well As The Other Participant Had Assured Us It Would.
But I'm having more and more trouble seeing how it matters. And more importantly, I have a sense of clarity, vindication, and self-assertion that I have not had in ages.
No, excuse me: RECLAIMED a sense of...
You don't need to know unless you know. None of this had to go this way, but I feel like I have absolutely unassailable evidence that I did everything I could, it didn't do a thing, and I can move on.
And if it ever comes up again, I can prove to anybody's satisfaction that I really, truly tried no matter what anybody says.
I am so exhausted, so worried Other Parties are going to try to provoke another round, and yet, happier and more relieved than I have been in something like three or four years.
Again, if I'm a terrible person, the gods must love terrible people, because they removed a huge lingering burden of guilt and stress from me today.
@eredien @anthracite We'll get that to ya when we're settled!
THE BAD NEWS... (+ but :( ); IMPORTANT MOVING/SOCIAL ANNOUNCEMENT
We will probably be moving on a VERY tight schedule, possibly as little as two weeks. We will visit everyone we possibly can, and try to get some vacation time up here as soon as we can.
Some people WILL PROBABLY BE MISSED in the process, and well... you will be missed sorely. It's absolutely not a sign of any lack of affection. I'll do the best I can, might have to arrange for some group dinner stuff.
mood (+?-?+?-?+?-?!?!)
Today... has been a very strange day.
There are a lot of things I could say. I could announce good news, but I never trust good news until it's 100% confirmed.
I could possibly, with some justification, launch a huge public drama over A Thing that suddenly went much worse than expected, revealing years and years of worst fears confirmed to have all been true.
But I see the opportunity to pull the biggest Karma Houdini of my life, instead, by trusting my benign feline indifference to all this petty shit to pay off. ^____^;
I did the best I could, and another's overreach has finally taken a huge, lasting, and agonizingly ambiguous burden off empathy of my shoulders.
And I could get my work done setting up the new grading team, which is due in like an hour... Yikes, bye! >_>;;
re: mood (+++/-??)
@001zlnv Yeah. Yeah, I may have made 40 or 50 references to that song in the last two months. :D
re: misfortune (+++) :D
Honestly, though, I'm kinda glad it happened, 'cause I was still stressing about a bunch of other situations that are probably resolved for the best, but my hindbrain hadn't quite accepted no longer needed to be fretted over.
And man, there's nothing like being locked out for an hour, and then getting back inside for a nice dinner, to reset your concept of what to worry about. :)
misfortune (+++) :D
Peg left the keys to our hosts' house AND her phone in the guest room while we went out for groceries, because "it'll be fine."
"It'll be fine" seems to be a very NOLA sort of concept. It does not work for me.
Yeah. Our hosts went out to get dinner while we were gone, and we got locked out. It was JUST to the point where it was going to make up its mind whether it was going to be romantic comedy or romantic tragedy, when they pulled up into the driveway... and saw Peg trying to break in by vaguely waggling a toy lightsaber through the catdoor.
So yeah. Definitely comedy. I love my ditzy-ass dragoness, but I do hope this will be a lesson in the whole notion of "measure twice, cut once" that seems to elude these whimsical creatures of air and fire. :)
@Austin_Dern Yeah. We... we, um... we ran into a lot of this on Puzzlebox. Great concept, zero clue how to play it. And that definitely applied to me too...
dae jharb (+++)
D'awww. My boss and I have been trading off some information I needed for the rental and planning my pseudo-promotion logistics... and he said "Thanks for being such a trooper, we couldn't get this stuff done without you. :) "
Well, my stress level just plummeted. I almost feel like a... what do you Earth folk call it... an ay-dalt?
re: mood (+++/-??)
GOOD: Also like 90% of y'all are welcome to visit, and the other 10% just have to get to know us a little better 'cause this is just Masto and stuff. n.n;
mood (+++/-??)
Let's see...
GOOD: NOLA is gorgeous and has obviously earned its culinary reputation.
BAD: I don't think I've eaten anything with <50% saturated fat content this week, EOF.
GOOD: Our first round of apartment hunting went great, I think? Peg found a couple of 3-bd shotguns, either of which would suit us very well.
BAD: The Interpersonal Thing I was talking about yesterday still overshadows it, because (aside from not bringing my employer info and leaving my e-mail security token at home like an idiot) it's the Number One threat to us getting this place.
GOOD: Thanks to the kind action of an intermediary, I have that resolved as far as I know, and if there are any further issues, I'm sure I can get the community to come in and help as gently as possible. If nothing else... this is everybody's opportunity to be rid of me for good. ;D
BAD: Yeah. This is everybody's opportunity to be rid of me for good. Peg wants to leave on a pretty tight schedule. If you wanna see me before I go... we might have to arrange for a group dinner or something, because I JUST PLAIN WILL NOT have time to see everybody individually. :(
GOOD: Damn, am I less grumpy in a city with actual sunlight. I could end up a much less difficult person after a couple years here. I'm about ready to beg for any help we can get to relocate down here peacefully...
GOOD: Though we just might not need it. As far as I know, we just have to get a little more information to the rental agency and we have a real good shot at one of the two houses. Wish us luck. Love y'all and will miss you terribly, but... I mean, I'll still be right here, tigering up your face and stuff. 🐯❤️
@Leucrotta Hey, that's pretty neat!
dreams (+++ for me, --- for humanity :D ), horror tropes, drugs (passing)
Holy fuuuuck.
I don't usually have vivid dreams, because of the frequent cannabis use, but I'm on tolerance break in NOLA and...
Basically, I dreamed a cross between Mardi Gras, that new film Climax about the dance party that turns horrific, and the film about the sacrificed angel in John Carpenter's "Cigarette Burns."
It started out as a few goth girls walking down the street singing, turned into this dark decadent art-march that filled the entire street they were walking down, and it ended up... well... I mean... look at the films I referenced. It was very, um, red-palette by the end.
I don't think most of the people reading this would have wanted to see this film. And I sure as hell would not have wanted to be there in real life. But... damn, parts of it were pretty, in image if not in activity. >_>;;; Beautiful cinematography, would not see again. <_<;;;
But DAMN is it good to have the imaginative R.E.M. fires burning again, light or dark...
Spent the afternoon napping next to one of the four big stone lions at NOLA's City Park, absorbing some much needed Big Cat Energy and picking up Artificial Cat tips from a seasoned expert.
He's a good guy. I think when we're settled down here, I'mma bring some fabulous metallic paints and do his nails. <3
In case you're a local... it's the one on the far right. This guy. Didn't get his name, I think there were some dialect issues.
🔥💫🐯(火星虎)
ɪɴᴄᴇɴᴅɪᴀʀʏ ᴘʟᴀɴᴇᴛ ᴄᴀᴛʙᴇᴀsᴛ ʀᴇᴢᴇʏᴀ
read this, pitiful humans:
http://egypt.urnash.com/parallax/